well, got a lot of things going on in my life. Every thing seems to be so fuzzy. i feel so afraid. there's a lot of life changing stuff thats probably going to happen in a couple of months and i just don't know if i would be making the right decision. sometimes, i wish i could just take a glance into the future. i guess i'm just suffering from a lot of anxiety and i just don't know how to deal with it.

anyway, enough about that. i will soon find out what my future will be tomorrow evening. hopefully, it will turn out for the good.

so i guess life with me is just the typical ups and downs. some days i'm just as cool as a cat and other days i'm the bitch from hell. i feel bad for brian when i'm that bitch from hell. he takes it though, he takes it like a man and understands what i go through. i love that in a man. i love him.

i hope you all had a great new year. i had a good time with a couple of friends that we invited over. we drank champagne, listened to some music, and talked all night long. it was good until midnight struck and heard all them damn gun shots and fire crackers. it was scary as hell, but it was fun.

I hope every one had a good christmas like i did. i spent most of my vacation in kayenta and in fort defiance. I stayed in kayenta tuesday - thursday and then on thursday - saturday i spent it in fort defiance with my family. christmas was great! my family decided to open gifts early since we had such a big dinner planned on saturday. i got a lot of cool things, but the gifts i cherish the most is the chocolate and orange bath stuff my dad got for me from the body shop and the monchichi my sister sent me.

on friday night i was working up a sweat in the kitchen, i had so many dishes i had to prepare for my sister's farewell dinner. my dad and i invited all of our family members over to the dinner. it turned out excellent! i haven't seen so many aunts, uncles, and cousins in such a long time. i think the last time we got together like that was at my grandfather's funeral. it's so sad that our family isn't that close enough to have family dinners like that, but this year was different. we managed to get every one to come.

my sister is in okinawa, japan right at this very moment. i bet she has a little culture shock, but i think she will fit right in since she has some korean in her anyway. she can just walk around and act like she is speaking japanese and probably nobody wouldn't even know the difference. yeah, she will fit right in. she got word that she will be on her way to helping the sunami victims. it's so sad about what happened to those people. they say that most of them are children, such a tragedy.

anyway, i was going to post some picture but i'm too lazy to load them on to my computer. maybe, this weekend. happy new year ya'll!!

just a warning to all people who live in the phoenix area. do not go to the midas that is located on 19th avenue and indian school. they're devious people!

my car was overheating last weekend so i take it to midas and they tell me that it is the thermostat. they change my thermostat. i drive the car the whole week, but on friday night my car overheats in rush hour traffic. we pull over and let the car cool down. the next morning we take it back to midas and they tell us that they need to keep my car all day. about 4pm that afternoon we get a phone call from midas and they tell us that we would need to replace some computer in the car and that it would cost us 700 to 800 dollars. they were giving us all this technical gibberish. i really didn't believe anything he was telling me so i tell midas to stop working on my car. the next day i take it to the dealer and they tell me something totally different from what midas told me. they found that the wire to the fan grounded out and i also needed to replace the fan relay. the labor plus parts only costed me 249 bucks. i was so pissed, i sent brian over to midas to try and get my money back from midas for partially working on it the day before. all they gave us was a $50 discount coupon. yeah right, like i'm going to take my car back over there again! anyway, i hate when my car gets sick. i don't like anybody laying their hands on my car unless they really know what the hell they are doing!!!!! anyway, happy holidays!

spooooky.....my dearest friend's dog died. it's kind of freaky thinking about it. the dog died on october 23 (Saturday) and my friend's boyfriend of 15 years died 3 months earlier on July 25 (Saturday). They both died around the same time that evening. I just can't get over the coincidence. my friend cried that whole evening. i knew why she was crying though. it was like a sign....it was as if he wanted his friend.

anyway, i'm officially done with all my christmas shopping. i started in september. i had a long list this year and i wanted to get everyone's gift on time. i tell ya, buying christmas gifts is not cheap. my friend keeps telling me to start shopping at the 99 cent store. i just laugh at her cause she does that for her family every year. she says that they better be happy that they are even gettin anything from her.

my sister is on her way back at this very moment. she just got done training in wichita falls, texas. she's gonna be back for about 3 weeks and then she's off to okanawa, japan for 2 years. i'm so proud of her. i'm damn proud of her! a chick, my sister, is actually an airplane mechanic...oh and she is also certified to fix air conditioners and refrigerators. ain't that cool? any way, the funny thing about it is that she is probably more girlie than i and she is going to be working with aircraft parts. dang, i swear my sister can just put her mind to do just about anything. i'm taking two weeks off from work to spend time with her and the rest of family this month.

it's been a long time.....been very busy and very lazy....all i gotta say is.....IKEA!

today i was looking through my folders and i came upon this photo. doesn't that look tasty? this was taken at brian's sister's house. it was his grandma's birthday. some days i just crave me some mutton.

i got all my packages that i ordered from ebay. i got 3 packages a couple of weeks ago. all of the packages contained little smurf figurines. one package came as far as london. i don't know why i like to collect. it's sort of an addiction i guess. anyway, maybe someday when i get the energy, maybe i'll take pictures of some of the things i collect.

p.s thought i'd share what i'm listening to at the moment.

michael jackson - human nature
faith evans - i love you
john anderson - straight tequila night
ziggy marley - drive
dead milkmen - bitchin camero
brooks and dunn - my maria
bob marley - is this love
the pixies - where is my mind

it's funny. i felt like crap this morning. i had body aches and it felt like i had a slight head cold, but as soon as i come home, i'm miraculously cured! that sucks, i didn't want to use any of my paid time off.

well, this weekend i think we are heading to kayenta. i really don't feel like going. i want to relax and do absolutely nothing. the main reason we are going back is because we have to help his grandma with fire wood. winter is coming soon and someone needs to haul some wood for her.

the above picture was taken near dilcon, az. i hope you all have a good weekend......

this was taken on a sunday evening on our way back to phoenix. this picture was taken near dilcon, arizona.

this is randy and graygo. i caught them lounging on my brother's bed. the little one has big, blue eyes and the big one has an unusually large pink nose. they're so cute!

i can't believe i didn't freeze my ass off this year. i remember last year i was freezing to death while i was waiting in anticipation for the parade. a lot of people were selling a lot of neat stuff as they walked along the parade route. so many things to see, so much money to spend!