what a wonderful day. today is brian's birthday, i had an opportunity to come into work early and am going to leave early, and best of all it's payday. friday is a good day, as the saying goes...thank goodness it's friday! i'm not going to work on saturday either. tomorrow, i am planning to celebrate brian's birthday. i told brian i would make some navajo tacos for him and probably his family. he is always begging for me to make it and tomorrow he is going to get his wish. i still need to get his cake today. i'm thinking of getting it at baskin robbins. i know he likes ice cream so i'm going to get him an ice cream cake. hopefully, it doesn't melt on me on the way home, that will suck. my cousin is having her son's birthday party tomorrow also. she invited me, but since we are throwing parties on the same day and around the same time i don't think i will celebrate her son's birthday party with her. besides, i dont' think i want to see her bastard boyfriend. i still can't believe her. it makes me sick to my stomach to think that she is even thinking of marrying that asshole. he put her through a lot of hell. i don't understand her. i just know if i ever see him i will surely say some smack to him. he doesn't deserve my cousin, but i don't think my cousin knows any better. truthfully, i think it's just the way she was raised.

i don't have to go to class tomorrow. yay! i'm so happy. that means i can come into work tomorrow during the morning hours. i always have a good feeling when i come into work in the morning. we finally finished that crap work that the boss wanted. he is so demanding. i also found out that he is taking a vacation. it must be nice. i haven't taken a vacation in a long time. my last vacation was spent in anaheim. we drove there almost 3 years ago. i can still remember it. emily (a friend) and i did this spur of the moment thing. we ended up driving all the way to anaheim to have some fun. that same night we ended up in tijuana. i know, it's crazy, but i had the time of my life. that was the first time i set foot into mexico. it was actually scary walking to our destination. when you first step into mexico they have all these men standing in the front actually begging you to come and catch a ride with them (taxi) and not only that these men were whistling and staring us down. i suggest that any ladies who decide to go to tijuana, don't go by yourselves. take some men with you because on the the way you will find that theres many strange people walking around, including little children. that was really sad to see. little kids were sleeping on the side of buildings or selling chicklets (gum). another thing that i remember about tijuana were those abandoned buildings. it was eerie walking through it. it looked like a ghost town, especially since we were walking through there around 11pm at night. that was an experience. i will never forget it. anyway, yesterday one of brian's friends brought over some shrimp seviche. my goodness, its so delicious. we actually pay his friend's girlfriend to make some for us. seviche can be addicting. i eat mine with tortilla chips.

american idol was hhhiiiilllllarious! i could not stop laughing. the funniest part was when the guy with the bowl shaped hair cut tried to sing a madonna song. i was done. my stomach got sore from laughing so hard. i can't wait to watch the next one. today is very hectic here at work. we got this project in and supposedly we weren't even supposed to touch it, but plans changed. we now have to finish this crap by monday. i am not going to work on saturday. how unfortunate for my boss. NOT! I will not feel sorry or guilty when i don't come in on saturday. saturday is brian's planned birthday party and i wouldn't miss it in the world. i made plans already. he just has to accept it. lately, i feel like such a slave. actually, both my coworkers and i work our asses off just to satisfy his grinchy attitude. he is such an asshole. we are due for our yearly raise. we asked about it at the end of january. did he get back to us about it? no, absolutely not! basically, i don't think we should be asking for it. he should automatically be giving us a raise every year, even if it means that it's only a quarter. it's just the thought that counts. i'm going home tonight and brian said he was going to take me out to dinner. he suggests denny's. i don't really care where we eat. i know i will be hungry by the time 8 o clock rolls around.

another day, another dollar. i'm still here at work. i have about an hour left before i leave from here. i can't wait to get home tonight so i can watch american idol. it's really hilarious when you actually can get the time to watch the show. i called brian a little while ago. i was talking to him on the phone and i heard some one in the back ground. i asked him who it was and he hesitated for a bit. i guess he didn't want to tell me who it was. i asked him again and he finally blurted out that it was lee. lee lives downstairs with his mother. i absolutely do not like that guy. there is a term that describes him....hmmmm.....let's say GHETTO. brian says they are church going folks. i say, NOT! yeah, they go to church but, the other day as i was sitting outside on the balcony i over heard her coversation on the phone while she was talking to a friend. she was talking about her man being in jail. then i guess her friend had asked her about what she does to satisfy her sexual needs and her response was that she doesn't, "fuck around on her man" and that she feels that she is "tight" again. i almost burst out laughing. i was in shock! i absolutely thought they were really nice people until i heard her say that. after that i just view them differently. i mean, this lady is like 45 years old and her son is like 26. there is something wrong here. on martin luther king day they threw a big party. the mom, a 45 year old lady, was outside dancing with one of her son's friends. they were not just dancing. they were doing the "nasty" dance. basically, i don't want that boy in my house. period! anyway, on that note, since i'm taking medical terminlogy classes right now i learned a new word. it's weird how a word can sound so freaky and complicated, but the meaning will be so simple. for example, the word that i have stuck in my head now, and probably for the rest of my life is "rhinorrhea". medical terminology basically consists of prefixes, suffixes, and root words. so when you break it down......-rrhea means flow, runny and rhino means nose. so when reading or breaking down medical terms you will always break it down from the suffix, root word, and then the prefix. basically, rhinorrhea is a runny nose.

today was my first day in my medical terminology class. gawd, there are so many unfamiliar words. i read the first chapter and there were a bunch of terms crammed into one chapter. i still have 16 more chapters to go to finish the book. i wonder if i will remember any of them. i should, i know i have to, especially since i want to be a certified medical coding specialist. i just realized that that i have 5 more months left to graduate. it sure is flying by in a flash. it still feels like i just started. here are my classes for the next 5 months. these are the most important too:

-medical terminlogy I
-medical terminlogy II
-Anatomy and Physiology I
-Anatomy and Physiology II
-Anatomy and Physiology III
-CPT-4 Coding I
-CPT-4 Coding II
-ICD-9 CM Coding I
-ICD-9 CM Coding II

i should graduate on july 7, 2003. that is 12 days before my birthday. this should be a nice birthday present. my grade point average right now is still a 4.0. i am hoping to graduate with it. wish me luck!

awww, today is friday. i can finally ease my mind. i don't really know what we are going to do when i get home from work. maybe brian and i should get something to eat for dinner instead of cooking tonight. i know we would be too tired to mess with the dishes, even if it means just rinsing them off and tossing them into the dishwasher. lol. i think it is still a lot of work. i found out today that i have to work tomorrow. i don't think it should be that bad. we got a new project in and hopefully it isn't too confusing. if it is, i know i will have a short stay at work tomorrow. usually i will get frustrated, disgusted, and then get mad, dealing with it the next day is better than trying to figure it out during your frustration. tomorrow i'm also planning on seeing that movie 'just married' i don't remember if that is the correct title but i know that brittany murphy is starring in it. you know, the other day i started to log onto my yahoo messsenger and to my surprise most of my chat friends were still there. i used to chat on messenger 24/7 a few years back. it actually help me get over the hard times in my past relationship. it basically help me forget about reality for a moment in my life. i met a lot of good chat friends and to this day i still correspond with some them. it's neat how you can find friends all over the world with just messenger.

gawd, i am so disgusted. actually more dissappointed in my cousin. see, about 7 months ago both my cousin and I decided to start school together. the purpose was to get into a new career and, of course, make more money. so we signed up for classes and we were set. i am still in school, but my cousin on the other hand decided to drop out. her excuse is that she doesn't have a baby sitter. what kind of freaking excuse is that? I don't think that is a sensible excuse at all. that is just plain stupid! I don't understand her sometimes. I think this sudden change in decision is probably due to her boy friend, or should i say soon to be husband. a couple of weeks ago she blurted out that she was engaged and that she is going to get married in february sometimes. i actually begged her to reconsider. there are a number of reasons why i begged her. one, the guy cheated on her. it wasn't just once, it was several times. on many different occassions, including the time when she was pregnant. second, he is an alcholic. and third he put her through a lot of hell. my cousin has been with this guy on and off for a total of 9 years now. i'm just so dissappointed! i know it is none of my business, but because she told me all the details of their horrible relationship i feel like i just have to do something. it sucks.

each day i get up and pray to god that he watch over brian and I during these trying times. i know he is listening to me. the lord works in mysterious ways. hopefully, he will make things better soon. i am drained, totally drained. this school and work thing is too much. i don't know how i manage sometimes. i keep telling myself things will get better and in the end it will be worth my while. you know, now that i am typing this, i can finally see that i dedicated myself to doing this and i don't think i have ever given up on any thing that i strived to do. i can do this. i know i can. then there is brian, i love him with all my heart. he is the love of my life and i can honestly say that no one can ever replace him. he's been there for me since the first day i met him. when i ran out of work for about a month or two he told me not to worry and that things will be alright. he is very good at comforting me and easing my mind. sheez, i remember back in the days when i was with my ex-boyfriend i would cry each and every night and i would pray to god and wonder why i put my self through such things. i would ask god why was there not a good man by my side, someone who would love and treat me the way i should be treated. someone who would love me for me. then out of the blue brian comes into my life. he was what i've always looked for in a man. my prayers were answered. i think i actually fell in love with him the moment i layed my eyes on him. he is my motivation, inspiration, and my best friend. the other day as we drove to the grocery store he looked at me and said, 'i think you are my destiny'. i melted. just those little words can touch a person. i love him for being as sweet as he is. i miss him so much because there is hardly a time i spend with him, since school and work is always in my busy schedule. for now, brian is still unemployed. he is temporarily working under the table for an old employer of his. that and his unemployment checks help us each month to pay for our massive bills that we accumulated when we were living in the fast lane. the job market definitely does not look good either. on sunday we picked up the arizona republic to search the want ads. i couldn't believe it. the want ads were only 3 pages. i was so sad to see that. we have basically searched all over phoenix to look for jobs. it really doesn't look good. they keep telling brian that the cardinal's stadium is on it's way, but we still have not got a call from his job that temporarily layed him off. they said it's only temporary, but it seems as if we have waited an eternity. i hope and pray for that day to come when his job finally calls him back to work.........

arrrrghhh! i am sooooo sick! i got sick on saturday. i have body aches and the sniffles. i didn't do a darn thing yesterday, but lay in bed and watch tv all day. it was a good day to stay in too. it was raining and thundering mostly all day. i didn't go to school or work yesterday. i wished i would have because when i stepped into class today i was piled with work from yesterday. i had to stay in class longer than usual just to finish up work i had missed. then today when i went into work i find out that there was work for only a couple of hours. i finished it in about 2 hrs. i am here at home now and my cat is being a little brat. she is running around like crazy and meowing. she's playing with one of my hair ties and i think she is running around meowing trying to look for the darn thing. she can be so human sometimes. the other day i caught here sitting on the toilet. she looked like she was doing her business......

today american idol is going to show. i saw previews of it for the past two weeks and it looks very interesting. i didn't watch any of the first american idol shows. i'm taking an interest in all these reality shows that they are coming out with. some of them are interesting and some of them are just BLAH! one show that i think is blah, is fear factor. last night i saw little clips of it. they showed them munching on duck eggs, pig liver drink, and silk worm cereal. that is totally disgusting. i felt like vomiting for them.

anyway, since i got out of work early today brian and I are planning on going to red lobster to have dinner today. my favorite, the ultimate feast. i can never get tired of eating that. my second choice would be the king crab legs. mmmmMMmmmm....i love crab legs. i can just taste it...

today the instructor at school let us out early. i got to work around 10am. i have about 30 minutes left before i leave from work. i'm so glad to be home early today. hopefully, i get to relax the rest of the evening. i also don't have to go to school tomorrow. our instructor declared tomorrow as 'library day', we each got a handout with some instructions to answer the questions he provided, i doubt that we even have to visit a library.

here at work i had to do tons of back end work. theres a lot of mistakes and unfortunately i couldn't fix them all. i searched through over 14,000 records and almost every one of the records that i clicked on had an obvious mistake. it sucks that we have to deliver work to clients like that. i have been quality checking work for some years now, and i just cannot stand mistakes in work that we do. i probably would have spent a week fixing the mistakes, but the work was due today and needed to be delivered to the clients by the end of the day. basically, my job was to make it look good and cover up obvious mistakes. oh well, at least i got that stuff out of my hair for the day. my arm is so tired from clicking on the mouse. 8 hrs day of analyzing documents and clicking on the mouse can sure strain your back. i can feel it throbbing right now.