bah fucking bug. i have been worrying my self to death since yesterday. a black cloud is hovering over my head. i feel so awful. yesterday i found out that brian and 53 other people got layed off from work. they say that work completely ran out. this is so confusing. they tell brian that they are waiting on the cardinals stadium and coyote stadium contracts. they told brian and the other unfortunate people that got layed off to just stand by for the next 1-3 months. i really don't know what to do at this point. brian and i have accumulated an enormous amount of bills that my income alone will not cover what bills that we have. this will probably be the worst christmas i will ever have. so far we have this months bills covered, but i don't know about next month and the next couple of months after that. brian has been job hunting all day. poor thing. shit, out of all months why do they have to do this before christmas? for now i just told brian to keep looking for another job or to apply for unemployment for the time being. they say that they will call him once the contracts go through, i say yeah fucking right. they probably sugar coated every thing to make it sound so good before they left work that day. what was also unfair is that they let go of people who worked less than 2 years for that company. his own boss told brian that it was unfair that the big honchos made that decision. his boss told him that most of the people that worked there for 2 years or more either suck or are just plain lazy. he said brian was a good worker and they should over look how many years a person worked for the company and look at how the employees work performance is. i really don't know what to do at this point. so far the job hunting doesn't look that good for brian. i searched the internet and the newspaper yesterday and today. the want ads in the paper was only a page long. work is slow i guess....i pray that the lord will get brian and i through these challenging times....