sheez....every body i know is sick, including me. i ache all over. i keep hearing this monotonous ringing in my head. it's driving me nuts. i didn't expect to get sick at all. not right now. i need to be in school and i especially need to be at work. so far i've been doing great about showing up at work every day. usually i will just trickle into work here and there, but due to the fucked up circumstances i now fully understand what the consequences will be if i don't show up to work. brian has been doing okay. he's been out and about with a buddy of his from work. poor things, they both got layed off. every day they go out and job hunt. it's required that you look for a job while you are on unemployment any way. i have been getting after him about keeping accurate records of places he's been to because the last couple of times he didn't write down the names of the companies he applied to. i outta kick him in the butt for that. he should know better.

gosh, some people are so damn lucky......some people at my school have so much money left over from their grants. i know of this one chick that is getting 3,000 and some odd dollars after she graduates. now how come i didn't get something like that. why do i feel like i am just so unlucky. for me...it's seems as though things could be going so damn good and then it could just get so fucked up in a second. is everybody's lives like this or is it just me?