man, this is what she does all day. don't you wish you were a kitty cat? 

next month i'm driving to san antonio, texas. it is going to be a very long drive. i'm sort of dreading it though. i'm going out there to see my sister graduate from the air force, that's if she is graduating, but so far so good. i better shutup, i might jinx her.

this month is gonna be a long month..... there's so many graduations and receptions we have to go to by the end of this month. i dread it so much. it's the drive that i dislike the most. the drive from phoenix to flagstaff totally sucks. there's nothing to look at, and it's fucking hot. yuck! yuck!

anyway, life for me sucks right now. i'm just not happy with the way things are going. i had so many plans and i just have to set them back again because of financial reasons. i know i will get over this hump soon, but knowing me, i'm the type of person that can't wait for things. i guess i will just have to sit back and just go with the flow for now.

yeah, i'll be popping back in every once in a while......it's so weird. i have all this free time now and i just don't feel like getting on the computer any more. maybe i should go back to going to school and working a full time job or working a full time job and a part time job again. hmmm...naw, i don't think so. that was too much for me and now i think i'm paying the price for it now. i've grown so damn lazy. i only work one full time job now. i said fuck it to the second one. i don't want to pay taxes again next year. i'd rather be broke and starving to death than have another bill. i hate bills. i guess that is just life though. we all have bills. life isn't easy, nothing is given to us for free, we all have to earn what we get.

my boss is gonna take leave for a couple of weeks. her husband is dying. he has terminal cancer. i guess respite has been visiting her house for the past couple of weeks. i sure do hope she is coping with the loss of her husband well. when she is at work she is her cheerful self though. it is kind of odd at times. it's like it doesn't seem to phase her. i think she just has gotten used to the idea of her husband passing.

it's getting pretty hot here in phoenix. today it got up to 103. ughhh....and the air conditioner in my car doesn't work right. i tried to get it fixed at bill luke, but those bastards wanted to charge me 700 dollars to take the damn dash board apart. i told that lady if she was fucking kidding me. she wasn't. i almost made a scene there that day. you see, my air conditioning works it's just that the knob isn't changing the settings. the air is only blowing towards my windshield. they told me that something might be blocking the air ways and that if they went in and found that something was blocking the airways that they would have to charge me 700 dollars and if they find that it was just one of their parts that was broken then it would be covered under warranty. i mean, if i gave them the go ahead to work on my car how in world would i know that they are telling me the truth? so then i said the hell with it and told them to give me back my car. that was way too much for me to pay out of pocket. they must think i'm fucking rich or something, bastards! anyway, someday, i'll get it fixed, but not right now, not in the situation i'm in right now. hell no.