fiesta bowl parade was today. i had a hard time getting into work. they had central blocked off from bethany home to thomas. it was such a disaster. i almost got into a traffic accident because of this parade. i work right off of central in the heart of downtown and well....it took me freaking an hour to get into the parking garage. this cop that i had to pass by had such a nasty ass attitude. all i wanted to do was just get to work and he was trying to give me a hard time. they had most of the roads blocked off around the area i worked. most of the afternoon i popped in and out of the office to go see the parade. i'm sure the office manager here doesn't mind and wouldn't tell the boss man in texas that i wasn't working today. he isn't that evil, i don't think.

Well, i want to wish you all a happy new year. you might find me in tempe being a retard tonight.....drive safely and don't drink and drive tonight :).

i'm actually here at work. it feels weird being here during the day. usually i'm at school around this time. this is probably the last day i can come in for work during the day this week. next week i will have to go back to my regular schedule of school and work. blah. i dread it, but i know i have to do it.

awwwww.....i had such a wonderful time during my visit at my dad's house. we left from phoenix on monday, december 23. i slept in that morning and we didn't leave until 1pm. it was such a boring drive. flagstaff was actually clear. i was surprised, but as i passed flagstaff to go into leupp i ran into the most horrific weather. i was panicing for a bit. there was so much snow! the roads were snow packed. i made my way through bird spring, indian wells, dilcon, greasewood, ganado, and st. michaels. dang. it was crazy. i was just about to make a turn back to winslow and get on the free way. i didn't know that it was snowing that bad that way. i should have looked at the weather report for those areas. my dad was so worried. brian and i had turned our cell phones off because we were on roaming, i guess all that time my dad was trying to figure out where we were and if we were alright. i'm so happy we made it through all that snow!

on christmas day every one woke up and we were ready to open all the packages that were under the tree. i got a turquoise bracelet, a pendelton blanket, turquoise earrings and matching necklace, a fondue set, bath and body works stuff, and of course candy. i also cooked our christmas dinner. i cooked for a family of 10! i started around 10 am and was finished by 4:30 pm. this was my menu for my christmas dinner:

baked 3 pies
turkey
ham
green been casserole
fruit salad
candied yams
mashed potatoes
potato salad
turkey gravy
stuffing
biscuits
salad
mutton stew
fry bread
cranberry sauce

and i did this all by myself. i was a cooking fool. i was so tired by the time we were ready to eat. I actually had the energy to go tubing at my grandma and grandpa's house in coalmine. it was the best. i felt like i was a little kid again. i flipped off that inner tube so many times because my sister's boyfriend had made a huge jump at the end of the hill we were sliding on. it was cold but that didn't mattter because i was with my family.....i can't wait until next christmas...

yes, it was a good day today. i got up this morning. i was actually excited to get up today. i had two christmas parties to look for forward to. i went to school and took my test. i got a B. my first B. i was dissapointed at first, but then i thought about it and now i don't think it's bad at all. it's better than a C, D, or F. Oh well, i wasn't really into taking a test today any way. after the test we decided to set the table for the christmas party at school. we did the mug and christmas gift exchange. i got a beautiful turquoise necklace. i am actually wearing it right now. the gift exchange took quite a long time because i remember thinking that i wanted them to hurry up and get on with it because the smell of the food was making me hungry. i pigged out.

i got to work around 11:45 today and the festivities were getting started. i made it just in the nick of time. the smell of food lingered throughout the office. every thing went smoothly today. no stress at all. when every one was about to finish up eating they started to pass out the presents. i got perfume. it's called 'miracle' by lancome. it smells good. then our sales guy each gave us (4 girls, including me) 40 bucks. that just topped the day off. that was so wonderful for him to just hand over 40 bucks. so now i am 40 bucks richer today....wooo hoo.

last night i didn't get a chance to thank the arresting officer for his heroism. sheez.......he heard my cries for help. since, i didn't get to thank the officer in person i called the police department, gave them my case number and asked who the arresting officer was. they gave me his name and his badge number and the address to the police department. after i got the name of the officer and the address, i went down stairs to the gift shop and bought him a thank you card. i thanked him tons. i will never forget what happened to me yesterday. i know now that i will be more cautious when i am out by my self. a great learning experiencing......i never thought any thing like this would ever happen to me.....

well, anyway, i have two christmas parties tomorrow. one is at school around 11am and the other at 1pm at work. i don't know if i should eat at school because i want to save my appetite for the food at work. i guess we will see about that tomorrow. i might just end up pigging out by the time tomorrow rolls around. i'll be sure to drink some pepto bismal tomorrow night.

gawd.....guess what happened to me tonight.......shit it was like scenes from a movie. i had just got off work and I stopped at this gas station to get some sodas for brian and i. for some reason it was unusually busy there that night. i usually park in front of the store, but for some god forsaken reason i parked on the side of the gas station where it was dimly lit. i walked in, grabbed the sodas, and paid for my things. I weaved in and out of croud as i made my way out to the door. as i was walking out the door i noticed that there were two guys standing by the telephone. one was black and the other was a spanish guy. the black guy was talking on the phone. i could feel at the corner of my eye that the spanish guy was watching my every move. it felt a little eerie so i walked a little faster to my car. as i got to my car i noticed the black guy was walking beside me and then i stopped a bit to see what he wanted and then right as i was going to turn he grabbed my purse. at first i was thinking it was just a joke and that he was going to give it back to me, but as i watched him walk away i started to yell that he had my purse. i think i must of screamed at the top of my lungs. i was in shock. i actually started to chase after him into the darkness. i remember we were running on the sidewalk by the main road and then i found myself exhausted, huffing and puffing, and still yelling at the top of my lungs in a dark alley with walls surrounding me. i remember looking at a dumpster wondering if he was in there. i can't believe i had the guts to actually chase this asshole. i had so much adrenaline running through my body. i wanted to chase him some more, but then i realized that he had jumped over the massive walls that were surrounding me. i was so sad, disgusted, and just so fucking mad all at the same time. i ran back to the gas station where i had my purse stolen and told the attendant that was inside that a man had stolen my purse outside the gas station. he asked me if i wanted to call 911. i told him no, only because i thought i wouldn't get my purse back. the gas attendant calmed me down and ran to the back of the store and grabbed a dasani bottled water for me to drink so i could catch my breath. that calmed me down a bit. i asked him if i could use the phone and he dialed the number to my house. i called brian, frantically told him the situation and then got off the phone. i didn't know what to do at that point. i felt lost. all these things were running in my head. i was thinking gawd...i have to cancel my bank cards, credit cards, checks, and then i was thinking i had to get my driver's license....social security card.... when i was thinking about all this a lady comes running in shouting to call 911. she shouts that there is a guy a couple of streets down holding another guy at gun point on the ground. right then i knew that must be the fucking bastard that stole my purse. i asked her if the guy was black and if he had a beenie on his head. she said yes. gawd, i was so relieved to hear that. once i heard her say that i ran to my car and took off in the direction she told me to go. i found the place with no problem. i waited in my car and turned my high beams on. i was too afraid to get out, but as i was sitting there and my eyes were getting adjusted i saw that the guy that was holding the gun was an off duty cop. he had a bullet proof vest on but was in civilian clothes. he had the guy face down on the ground with his gun pointed to the back of his head. i tell you, it was like scenes from a cop movie. i got out of my car. i stood there for a moment and then i spotted my purse a few feet away from them. i was going to go get it, but the cop told me to stand back and wait. i obeyed his orders and stood by my car. i heard sirens all around me. they were coming closer. then i heard a helicopter above me. the ghetto bird was on top with it's spot light on us. geez, i counted how many cop cars that surrounded us. there was a total of 7. simutaneously the cops all got out of their cars and went to assist the cop with the gun. they got the guy up and put him in handcuffs and escorted him to the back of one of the cars. during all that....i said a little prayer and thanked god for watching over me tonight. i was relieved, happy, and felt really good inside. one of the cops wrote of up the incident report. he asked me how it all happened and wrote every thing i said down. he asked me if i wanted to prosecute. i said yes. i want to prosecute this fucker. for one, he stole my purse, two he made me run and three he messed with the wrong person. i will be in the court room when the court date is set. he deserves it. anyway, i hope you all be careful now. people are that desparate and since it's the holidays theres no telling what a person might do. i am glad that i'm still alive and nothing bad came out of this whole fiasco.

i'm so tired. i have two christmas parties to go to and they are all within this week. at school were are doing some stupid mug exchange and potluck christmas dinner. i had to run to walmart and spend some money. money that i was trying to save for the drive back home to see my family. yes, i'm going home. fuck it. if it means that i have to sacrifice some stuff then fuck it. i will go home. i need to any way. i need to get out of this place and be around my family. on friday we have our christmas party here at work. i have to bring the fruit salad. i'm going to make this yummy fruit salad. it's called pistachio fluff fruit salad. here are the ingredients.

Pistachio Fluff Fruit Salad

Ingredients
1 (20 ounce) can crushed pineapple with juice
1 (3 ounce) package instant pistachio pudding mix
1 (12 ounce) container frozen whipped topping, thawed
2 large bananas, sliced
2 cups miniature marshmallows
1 (15.25 ounce) can fruit cocktail, drained
1 (11 ounce) can mandarin oranges, drained


Directions
Dump instant pudding into a large mixing bowl. Add pineapple, and mix well. Mix in nondairy whipped topping. Stir in bananas, marshmallows, fruit cocktail, and mandarin oranges. Cover, and refrigerate until thoroughly chilled.

i decided i will take that for the christmas party at work. this year we are having a pot luck christmas party because our the boss gave us a choice. he asked us if we wanted to have it at a restaruant or would we rather have a pot lock and have really nice gifts. of course, we are ghetto, we asked for the potluck and really good gifts. last year we had our christmas dinner at a restaraunt called sports city grill in downtown phoenix. the year before that we had the christmas party at machayos. that was the year our boss was actually nice to us. he let us order any thing off the menu and plus it was open bar all night. sheez, back then i was such a wino and so that night i took advantage of the open bar that they had. those were some good christmas parties. hopefully this year isn't going to be too bad since we are bringing in some good food to munch. i hope the christmas presents we are expecting are good. i say this because i feel the company owes it to us. that could be one good explanation. anyway i better get back to work. i have been goofing off far too long. i think it has been 2 hours since i last touched my work...i better get....nite y'all....

geez, there is some major partying in the restaraunt across from my office. a company is having their christmas party tonight. they have a dj and every thing. when i was making my rounds down stairs i over heard this bimbo sounding chick saying that they had an open bar. oh whoopdeedoo. bah hum bug. earlier i heard from the loud speaker system that they were drawing for 4 vacation packages. i heard only two trips though. one was for cancun and the other las vegas. i thought what a fantastic thing a company can do for their employees. they actually reward their employees. unlike mine, my company sucks. no employee incentives. not a freaking gift certificate, blah

tonight brian is actually going to make me some homemade tortillas. i wonder how they are going to turn out. if it looks and tastes bad i will still eat it anyway. i don't want to hurt brian's feelings. i know he is probably going to put in a lot of effort trying to make it so i will eat every bit of it. tonight's menu is going to be baked seasoned pork chops, fried potatoes, corn on the cob, and brian's homemade tortillas. i am so fortunate that he is cooking tonight. If it weren't for brian's cooking, i would have probably had me a bologna sandwich and some chips for dinner. oh i came home last night from work and i discovered that he also rearranged the whole living room. he is so damn good. i have to reward him this weekend after i get off of work on saturday......

dang tomorrow is gonna be the oral report thingy that i will be dreading. i hate standing in front of an audience. the last time i had to do an oral report i thought i was gonna pass out. i'm not kidding. it's like, i had the courage to go up there and speak up, but once i got to that podium and saw all eyes on me, my body froze. i could actually hear my heart beat and as i was holding my paper i noticed my hands were shaking. i was trying to tell my self, slow down, don't stumble over your words, and just think that after this you will be fine. it didn't work. i felt my heart pounding all through my report. i hate it and wished that i didn't have to get up there tomorrow.

anyway, as always i'm here at work.....brian called me a little while ago. he asked me what i wanted to eat for dinner. i told him to take the steak out of the freezer and defrost it. dang, brian is gonna make me dinner. just cute. the other day i told him that he is the wife now, since he hasn't been working for the past few days. i told him you have to cook, do laundry, wash dishes, and vacuum, and when i get home he would have to do a deep body massage on me. it's nice though that some one is actually at the house. my poor kitty stays by her self all the time when we are away at work or school.

i slipped out of class early today. i feel so guilty. i wonder if my instructor found out. i hate for him to confront me tomorrow if he did. i had to take brian to this job site today so he can fill out their application. i also faxed his cover letter and resume to this one particular company. i really hope he gets hired there. it sounds like the company is really good. if he gets hired there, and brian gets called back to his job that layed him off, i will tell brian to stay at the new job because they pay a hell of a lot more at the place i faxed his resume to.

i have a couple of minutes left here for work so i better start getting ready to put stuff away. i need to go into one of the back offices and grab me a handful of the wonderful chocolate candy they have stashed back there......Mmmmmm.

sheez....every body i know is sick, including me. i ache all over. i keep hearing this monotonous ringing in my head. it's driving me nuts. i didn't expect to get sick at all. not right now. i need to be in school and i especially need to be at work. so far i've been doing great about showing up at work every day. usually i will just trickle into work here and there, but due to the fucked up circumstances i now fully understand what the consequences will be if i don't show up to work. brian has been doing okay. he's been out and about with a buddy of his from work. poor things, they both got layed off. every day they go out and job hunt. it's required that you look for a job while you are on unemployment any way. i have been getting after him about keeping accurate records of places he's been to because the last couple of times he didn't write down the names of the companies he applied to. i outta kick him in the butt for that. he should know better.

gosh, some people are so damn lucky......some people at my school have so much money left over from their grants. i know of this one chick that is getting 3,000 and some odd dollars after she graduates. now how come i didn't get something like that. why do i feel like i am just so unlucky. for me...it's seems as though things could be going so damn good and then it could just get so fucked up in a second. is everybody's lives like this or is it just me?

just about to leave from work. i have to get home and do some homework for my law and ethics class. i have so many things to do. i just don't have the time to do any thing anymore. i've been worrying constantly for the past few days. mainly, on how we are going to manage for the next couple of weeks. i really don't know what to do at this point. i will just have to see what the end result will be. it just sucks to even think about what can happen. a person can only go through so much shit and eventually they will just crumble. i have been doing okay so far. i just don't want to get to that point yet. not now. i need to just stay positive. i don't really know if i will get to visit my family this christmas. i will probably have to mail their gifts to them at a later date because right now that is the least of my worries.....i hope y'all are doing better than me...have a good night......

here at work on a saturday. i have not worked on a saturday in a very long time. i'm the only one here too. the other girls should be coming in a while. i got out of school early yesterday. i came right to work afterwards. it felt so good seeing my coworkers again. it was like the good ole' times. i was laughing all day. it took away all my worries away for the moment. gosh, i really miss my dad. i called him the day that we found out the bad news. he sounded like he was going to cry for us. my dad is a very religious person he prays for brian and I every day. i can just see my dad right now....brewing the coffee, listening to the christian station, and reading the bible at his desk. i miss him and wished he was here during our troubled times.

anyway, on the bright side...brian qualified for unemployment. the person he spoke to told him that he will be getting about $280 bucks a week. That is $350 less than what he used to get every week though. I have to really watch what we are buying for the next couple months. no more splurge spending and I will have to get my ass to work. I take a day off here and there, but now i realize i have to get my ass in gear and be a model employee at work. lol. yeah right.

I have been through so much shit in my life and this is not the worse i've been through. i know i will make it through this. brian and i are together. we love each other very much and we will make it. i have to keep a positive outlook every day and that will work with the help of brian by my side. we will get through this....sooner or later.

bah fucking bug. i have been worrying my self to death since yesterday. a black cloud is hovering over my head. i feel so awful. yesterday i found out that brian and 53 other people got layed off from work. they say that work completely ran out. this is so confusing. they tell brian that they are waiting on the cardinals stadium and coyote stadium contracts. they told brian and the other unfortunate people that got layed off to just stand by for the next 1-3 months. i really don't know what to do at this point. brian and i have accumulated an enormous amount of bills that my income alone will not cover what bills that we have. this will probably be the worst christmas i will ever have. so far we have this months bills covered, but i don't know about next month and the next couple of months after that. brian has been job hunting all day. poor thing. shit, out of all months why do they have to do this before christmas? for now i just told brian to keep looking for another job or to apply for unemployment for the time being. they say that they will call him once the contracts go through, i say yeah fucking right. they probably sugar coated every thing to make it sound so good before they left work that day. what was also unfair is that they let go of people who worked less than 2 years for that company. his own boss told brian that it was unfair that the big honchos made that decision. his boss told him that most of the people that worked there for 2 years or more either suck or are just plain lazy. he said brian was a good worker and they should over look how many years a person worked for the company and look at how the employees work performance is. i really don't know what to do at this point. so far the job hunting doesn't look that good for brian. i searched the internet and the newspaper yesterday and today. the want ads in the paper was only a page long. work is slow i guess....i pray that the lord will get brian and i through these challenging times....

i have been off work for a total of 7 days. i miss it actually. wow. it's been really nice, but i realize that it is getting closer to christmas and i have yet to buy a few more gifts. the other day brian made me drive him to best buy. he said that he was going to buy my gift. oh goodie. i wonder what my gift will be. lol. i definitely know it is from best buy and more than likely it is something electronic. i wonder if it is the digital camera that i wanted. i will have to wait and see. please oh please tell me that brian bought me a digital camera. i have wanted one for over a year now. the price of digital cameras have dropped dramatically and are now affordable.

i'm hungry. i really don't have anything in the fridge that is snack material. most of the stuff that is in the frig either needs to be cooked or microwaved. i'm so tired of microwave food. i'm tired of pot pies, hot pockets, michelenas, and swanson etc. yuck. i'm craving some dumpling soup. i had some when i was in window rock. i went to this particular food stand at the flea market. i don't remember the whole name but i do remember the word "ed's" was in the title. gosh, that stuff was so good. i ate the whole thing. brian had a mutton sandwich. his sandwich was stuffed with a lot of onions. the drive home was torture. he kept burping and the smell of onions would penetratate what little fresh air we had left in the car. gross. on the drive back to phoenix i had to open my window every now and then because brian was burping uncontrollably. i actually had to stop in dilcon to get brian some mouth wash. i tell ya that onion smell was pretty strong. lol. I'm hungry i'm going to dig in the pantry to look for something to munch on....cup o noodles sounds good.....MMMmmm.

we decided to leave from phoenix thursday (thanksgiving) morning. we found out that brian's sister had rented a room in flagstaff so we decided to meet up with them on thursday afternoon. we finally packed every thing in the car and headed onto the freeway. every thing was fine until i reached speeds up to 70-75 mph. the car was not driving well. i could go as far as 75 mph and it seemed like the whole car was vibrating. geez, i almost started crying because it was very frustrating. i had spent almost two freaking days at sears trying to get my car aligned and balanced, and in the end i bought all 4 tires. you would think that after buying all the tires that they would align and balance the car right. yeah right. anyway, we decided to drive it like that until we got to flagstaff. the drive was so boring. that is probably the first time i drove that slow on the freeway.

so we finally get to flagstaff and we chat and visit with brian's sister at the hotel. i really enjoyed it. i think it was something both brian and i needed, to be around other people, to gossip, joke, and to laugh uncontrollably. we did that for a bit and we decided that we needed to buy some food for the thanksgiving dinner that we planned on friday. we spent about 2 hrs in fry's. walking up and down each aisle throwing in anything we might need. it was really fun. another memorable moment that i will never forget. After all the grocery shopping brian and i agreed that we would stay in flagstaff until friday afternoon because every thing was closed on thursday. we needed to get the car worked on. the sears in flagstaff opened the next day at 8am. we were the first ones in there. i showed them my warranty papers and they were working on my car in no time. we walked around the flagstaff mall. there was an enourmous amount of people there. a lot of natives every where. you know, it's feels weird being on the reservation or being in cities that are close to the reservation because all you see is brown skin. i don't know if it's noticeable to any of y'all, but it's a big difference especially when you live in a place that is racially mixed. i guess when you are away from the rez for so long it's very noticeable. i sometimes feel awkward. sometimes people look at me with an expression like is she indian or what the hell is she? i get very uneasy when i am being stared at. i somewhat got used to it, but it still bugs me a bit.

it's friday morning and we finally get the car fixed. praise the lord! it was driving smoothly. i was reaching speeds of up to 100 mph because it was running so smoothly. i was happy. my car was finally fixed. a warning to all the people who live in phoenix or visit phoenix. do not go to sears auto care by the metro mall. they suck and do such a terrible job. i don't think half of them know what the hell they are doing there. i will never go there again, even if it is the last auto care place on this earth. i would rather walk on foot than to take my car in to those idiots. it's such a waste of money. anyway, we finally get to kayenta and we feast! there was so much food. i think i ate for two people that day. i felt pretty sick afterwards too. i over ate and that is not a good thing. especially, if you are eating at the later part of the day and you are not going to do anything strenuous later on. our day still didn't end though. brian and i decided to visit my dad in fort defiance. we left that night and we were in fort defiance on saturday and sunday. it was really good seeing my dad again. i missed my family very much and wished that i could have stayed longer. i shouldn't be whining. i will be seeing them on christmas again. i can't wait......

studying for my test.....studying for my test....studying for me test.......i'm here at work. i'm supposed to be working since i'm still on the clock, but i'm studying for my test........studying for my test. i've been reviewing the two chapters the test is going to be on, but everything i read isn't sticking. i hate when that happens. this stuff must be boring. i can usually remember the stuff if i read it more than once, but i've read it a million times and i still don't remember what the hell i read. i think i might know what the problem is. i'm so excited to head out of this place. i miss the fresh, crisp, air, blue skies, and mountains. tomorrow all i have is class and i will be off from work until monday. we will be leaving late wedesday night. i told brian to ask his boss if he could leave early wednesday night, but his boss told him that if he left early he would not get his holiday pay for thursday and friday. that really sucks. now if he would have stayed on the day shift this wouldn't have been a problem. oh well, i shouldn't be bitching at least we will finally get out of phoenix for a change.

Today, at school they were passing out our awards. they had a little student appreciation deal this afternoon. they supplied us with hotdogs, chips, and cake. that was thoughtful of the school. finally, they do something to appreciate us. anyway, i got my award certificates. i got one for attendance and the other award was for making the president's list with a 4.0 GPA. I felt really good receiving the certificates even though they may be just pieces of paper. deep down i felt like i finally accomplished some thing in my life. i wish i would have done this earlier in my life, but i shouldn't be complaining because it's good that i'm doing it now than not at all. now my goals will be to try and keep the 4.0, not to miss any school, graduate, get my certification as a medical coder, and then land a job that pays top dollar.

my weekend was very relaxing. it was peaceful actually. i had such a great time staying home and not doing a damn thing. i actually watched tv. wow. it was nice to watch all the shows that i used to watch. i love watching the osbournes. mtv had the osbourne marathon on saturday. i watched it all day. that show is hilarious. ozzy can be such a dork sometimes.

well, tomorrow will be my last day of work and i'm heading out to the reservation on wednesday. it will probably be like early thursday morning by the time we leave because brian doesn't get out until 11pm. it's very cold out here in phoenix so i'm wondering if it is snowing in flagstaff. i don't want to be caught in a snow storm. about 2 years ago i was leaving back to phoenix during christmas time and i got caught up in a wicked snow storm. it was the kind of snow storm where you could not see a thing front of you. that kind of weather i would really like to stay away from this thanksgiving. please lord pave my way back to the reservation........

shucks, it sucks this year. i don't get to cook this year. we are going to brians familys house. they told us to bring our tummies and nothing else. they say that they understand that we work hard and that we don't need to work up a sweat and cook something. that is very nice, but i will feel weird bringing myself and not bringing anything to the table. i will probably whip up some chocolate pecan pie to take over there. i did buy a turkey yesterday though. i like to wait until the last minute to buy a turkey because the closer it gets to thanksgiving the more the price of the turkey drops. my turkey yesterday was only 6 bucks. i was one happy camper. i will probably roast it the second week of december. i love turkey leftovers. you can use it for every thing.....turkey sandwiches, turkey enchiladas, use it in your salads, casseroles....etc. MMmmmmm...turkey!

yay! it's friday. i get to finally rest for the next two days. i am so tired right now. i need my bed. yes, i'm still at work. i won't leave from here until 12am. i've done a lot of work tonight and my brain seems to be throbbing. my brain is fed so much information every day. i just don't see how i do it. i didn't get to study last night either even though i stayed home from work to study. i just skimmed through the chapters and set my book aside. i got distracted by the tv. i don't watch tv any more so its a privilege when i do. oh by the way i got an 'A' on my test.

tomorrow, i will probably sleep in until noon and probably hit the mall and do the rest of my christmas shopping. i hate big crowds, especially the mall. there are too many weird people there so i try and stay away from the mall when ever i can. hope y'all have a good weekend. good night y'all.

I'm home today. i decided not to go to work today. i have to clear my mind of some things and to study for my test tomorrow. well, I had a big talk with the admissions representative at school today. she talked me into staying with my program. at first i was upset at the fact that they had fired my instructor. i liked her teaching methods and i definitely understood every thing she was teaching. i guess i was just mad at the fact that i've had 3 instructors since i started school about 2 1/2 months ago. the first instructor that i started out with was ditzy. her class was a joke and i eventually transferred out of there to the morning classes. i got situated and comfortable with the morning classes and then about 2 days ago the director of the school comes in and informs us that our instructor was fired. basicly her speech was short and to the point. it was mostly about how we shouldn't stir up any trouble or we will suffer the consequences. that speech from the director of the school made me feel threatened. it was like she was telling us to keep our comments and concerns to our selves and that we couldn't voice our opinion. fuck that. my tuition is close to $9,000 dollars and i definitely have the right to express my opinion on certain situations like this one.

anyway, i listened to some of the lecture today from the new instructor. he seems to know his stuff and hopefully he has extensive knowledge in medical coding because that is the only reason why I took the course. i am sticking to this and hopefully there will be no more negative situations like this again.

ok...today was a totally shitty day. i really don't know what to do now. i found out this morning that my instructor got fired. i feel like this is unfair. we got introduced to the new instructor today. i definitely do not like. i have been thinking so much today and well....i think i might be doing something that might either benefit me or not...i'm thinking about changing my program. i still have not talked to brian about it because i know his answer will be, "go ahead, do what you got to do" or "do whatever makes you happy". "you know i'm here for you". gosh, i love him so much. i need him right now, but i'm stuck here at work...anyway, that was my shitty day...good night y'all....:(

i need a few more gifts to look for. i think i have 3 left on my list. i still don't know what to get brian for christmas. i'm torn between his wish for tools (bleh, only men would want that kind of stuff) or a leather jacket. i really don't want to get him tools for christmas, but he keeps hinting around that he wants tools. then again, i saw this really nice leather jacket. i know it is something that he would definitely like, but the tag is a bit too pricey. i might have to do something drastic and charge the damn thing. i hate getting things on credit. i will have to see until december. i don't want to get his christmas gift early because last year he decided to open his birthday gift behind my back. i was dissappointed in him. i think i know why he decided to open his gift early though. i enticed him too much. i left his gift on the table two weeks before his birthday. i guess on that final week of his birthday he just said fuck it and carefully opened the gift. in the end, i of course found out. lol. its so funny to think about it now. i wanted it to be a surprise. his first ps2. lol. he doesn't play with it that much any more.

today, i went on a class trip to thunderbird samaritan hospital. wow. now, that is a hospital. patients are treated like kings and queens. they are so pampered. i would like to work there after i finish school. we toured the medical coding and billing department. gosh, i am so motivated again. for a couple of weeks i've been feeling really down and exhausted, but the tour today gave me some more motivation. I think after i graduate i might take a medical coding course at PCC so i can get certified. unless i study my ass off and pay the 280 dollars for the certification test. well, i guess all that will depend on whether i feel like i have to take another course. well, it's time to clock out...good nite y'all.

why do auto care places display that they are certified? yeah freaking right! i was at sears auto care on saturday and sunday. practially all damn day. oh man, it is a good thing my fiance knows how to change the brakes in vehicles because if he didn't we could have had a massive bill from sears. he changed my front brake discs and replaced all the brake pads. we decided to get the alignment done afterwards because the car has been driving a little funky for the past few months. it kept pulling to the left so that is why i decided to take the care in. anyway, we get there and we tell them we want an alignment. the guy at the front desk says, "ok, that will be $54.95 to get an alignment on your car". i agree with it. this place took 4 hrs to do my alignment on saturday. during these 4 hrs they had to test drive it and realign it twice. i finally got out of there about 30 minutes before closing. i paid my bill and left. brian and i jumped on the freeway to see if it was fixed. it wasn't. this time the car was pulling to the right. i was so pissed off. I felt like turning around and going back over there and have them fix it until they got it right, but it was late so i waited until sunday to take it back in again.

it's sunday morning. i was there right at 10am. that is when the place opens. i go in tell them my problem. they agree to take my car in again and see if they can fix it. i wait for 6 hrs. within those 6 hrs they come to me and say that i might have to buy 4 all new tires. i probably had so much disgust on my face because afterwards they offered me a discount on my tires. i take their offer for the discounted tires and i watch them as they mount the new tires on. then they go and check the alignment again. I'm sitting there waiting and watching. they have 4 technicians there trying to align my damn car again. Oh my gosh, i was thinking when will this ever end. they come back and tell me that they can't align it and say that maybe the machine that aligns the tires is off and needs to be checked so they tell me that they have to align my tires manually. they move my car in a different area and it takes 5 men to do this. after all this i'm sitting here and thinking maybe i bought my tires for nothing if they say that the machine isn't aligning the tires correctly. sheez, why does this kind of crap always happen to me? out of all that chaos i am minus 450 dollars.....i'm so disgusted.

i'm at work. Blah. i decided to drag my lazy ass in today. i could have worked yesterday, but i was so damn tired. i couldn't get myself to go. i just wanted to sleep in all evening, but to my surprise, i just couldn't. i tried so hard to make myself go to sleep. i even took some sleeping pills. it didn't work at all. i guess my body got used to staying awake for long hours at a time.

i heard a little while ago that there is some bad shit gonna be happening tomorrow regarding work. see, we bought software program from this particular company and well, we just found out that the software that we have been using for the past 5 months was not doing it's job. it is bugged. you know the bug that is in men in black at the end of the movie. it's as big as that. gosh, i'm thinking about all the clients we have been working with. all this time, we just didn't know. stupid software. this software is a big database, it holds a bunch of files, and well it's been giving clients wrong information. we have been giving clients wrong information since june. now i see why we haven't been landing new clients because of the fucking software. i hear there is going to be a humungous law suit. my boss is coming in from texas first thing saturday morning. i can't wait to see what this will entail.....

well, today wasn't the usual. i only had school today, yet i still feel tired. it feels like i worked today too. i think i might know the reason why i feel this way. i've been thinking about 'something' and i feel scared right now. i know that this 'something' is not what i want at this point in my life. a lot of things have been running through my pewny brain of mine and well i just hope things turn out for the best. i worry too much. i get it from my mom. it might the asian blood in me. my mother, if i recall, always was so quick, to the point, was not a procrastinator, and well she always wanted the best. not to say she was a snob and so picky, but most of the asian people that i know want what is best, work so damn hard, and doesn't take any thing for granted. they be owning these little stores, but take pride in what they have. I should feel the same too, but.....arrrghhh....i'm soooo worried.....anyway, i hafta go....nite nite y'all.

we ran out of work! that really sucks. it's like during the time when you really, really, want to work the work stops coming in completely, and then when you don't want to work and wish that there was no work you will be piled or showered down with work. i was trying to save up some money to go on a shopping spree for my brothers. i do this when ever i can because back then i wasn't as fortunate and i know how it feels to want this and that as i was a kid/teenager. my dad can do so much, but i like to buy stuff for my little brothers. they are the only brothers i have. they are doing really well in school and i want to do this for them. please god, have work for us in a couple of days......

i cannot believe it is already tuesday. the days are flashing by before my eyes. that reminds me. i have to study for my final friday. i also have to turn in my report on hospice care. this final that we are having on friday is a toughy. that means i really have to study. so far, the tests in the past have been a breeze, but i guess she noticed that we might not be dumb. haha. well, anyway, i found out that i have a 4.0 GPA. i am the shit. i study hard and do my work. i really deserve my 4.0. i am so happy. i just hope i can keep up that average in the next couple of months. wish me luck!

i had such a restful weekend. i woke up around 2pm on saturday. it felt so good. The only reason i woke up on saturday is because my cat was licking my face. that was such a rude awakening. my cat and i jumped in the shower. the soothing shower was so relaxing. i am so glad i bought that water massage for the shower. anyway, after the shower i decided to jump on the net to see when the movie 8 mile was showing. I finally watched the movie. i thought it was pretty good. although, brittany murphy played such a slut in the movie. i love all her other movie roles, but this one really dissappointed me. i sat there disgusted when i saw the sex scene in the factory. gross. i bet a ton of guys loved that:)

i need to go home. i miss my dad so much. i think he is going through one of those phases with lenora. lenora is my step mom. i hate her. she does not cook, clean, pay bills, or help my dad in any way. she is just there. i don't know for what reason. it's like my dad is taking care of a another child. my dad is such a loving, understanding, and caring person, and yet my dad still puts up with all her shit. it's been like this for quite some time now. my step mom and dad have not one thing in common. my dad goes to church. my dad lives for church. unlike, my stepmom she doesn't go to church at all. she doesn't do shit, period! I am getting sick of her. my dad needs to kick her out and divorce her, but i know that will never happen. my dad is too nice. I think during my christmas vacation i'm going home and the shit is definitely gonna hit the fan. she is going to hear from me. oh yes she will.

This is day 2 of being drained of energy. I have one more day. Oh how I wish today was Friday. I desperately need some rest. No, not rest. I need some sleep. I think I need to catch up on 3 days worth of sleep. I don't know how I do it. Soda helps me stay awake most of the time. I also need a good home cooked meal. Geez, I haven't had one since.....I really don't remember. Lately, I've been munching on cheezits, microwavable dinners, and soda. That is not healthy. I had to go and buy me some multivitamins because I know I am not getting nourishing meals.

I found out today that my fiance' is going to have to work 7 days a week in the next couple of months. That will totally suck! We will not be seeing each other at all. His company landed a big project. They are going to get a ton of work to help build the cardinal's stadium. He said something about the coyotes stadium too, but I am really unsure of that. Well, I'm tired, but I have to study for my test tomorrow so goodnight y'all....

listening to: pink "family portrait"

Oh dear me. The life of a very tired woman. That is me. Soo, soooooo, sooooooooo tired. Woe is me. Sheeeeeit. Well, I finished my dang essay (due on monday) and my report (due next friday, not this friday, but the next). Am I freaking great or what? Here I was bitching about how much homework she assigned. I stress my self out for no reason.

I am such a retard. I think I need to get me like a big dry erase board for my room. Yesterday, I found out that I forgot to pay the phone bill again! I even wrote myself like a note of all the bills. I made a sticky note to my self to remember to cross out all the bills that I paid. That shit didn't work. If it did, I wouldn't have forgot to pay the phone bill. This happened two times now. Two months in a row. They sent me a disconnect notice. I am surprised they didn't turn my cell phone off again. Last month when I forgot to pay for the phone bill they turned off my cell phone, but left my internet and home phone on. I thought that was dumb. Oh well, I guess the shit has got to hit the fan sometimes....

Oh goodie, I'm counting down the days for Thanksgiving. Woo hooo. I get that Thursday and Friday off from school. Unfortunately, I will still have work, but who the hell cares. At least my days will not be like 13 hr days for those two days. Then I have Christmas break. A whole week. I'm counting the days. The months seem to rolling by before my eyes...wonderful!

I'm waiting in anticipation to see that move "8 mile". It looks like it will be really good. During the summer I kept seeing previews of it and they never would show the scheduled date of when it will show. I will probably see it on Saturday since I work Friday evening. Besides, usually on the night when a new movie is showing there will usually be a shit load of people there. Oh gosh. I hate when people bring in their babies. It's even worse when the parent decides not to take the baby out when he/she is screaming at the top of their lungs. I'm sorry to say this, but it is true. Babies really do not belong in a theatre. One, they do not watch the movie. Two, the strollers are usually protruding out in the walkway or worse you are stuck in your seat because the stroller is in your way. Three, it's just too loud for those delicate ears of theirs.

"Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you" . I think every one should live by this quote. I finally realized it after being with my ex. The relationship was worthless and stupid. I learned so many things from that relationship. I thought I was happy and in love, but those were the worst years of my life. I realize that now. I wish I would have realized it back then so I wouldn't had to have wasted 4 years of my life with that son of a bitch. He totally fucked me up. Emotionally and physically. It's sad though. I sometimes think about him and wonder what he's doing to fuck up another girl's life. I am so glad that I didn't marry him because if I did I wouldn't have met Brian.

Well, with that note......I was thinking about my friend. She seems to be in a relationship like I was in. Every time I call her there is something wrong. She is always arguing with her boyfriend. She can't go any where. It's like she has to be kept in check all the time. She is in prison! I feel like asking her why she stays with this guy but I don't want to intrude because she seems to defend him most of the time. I mean, what makes it worse is that this guy is like 8 years older than her and she seems to be more of an adult than he. I don't know. It's weird how we let ourselves go through these kinds of things.....

I've been so busy lately. School and work has really got the best of me these days. I have so much home work. The class is so simple. We have a tiny text book and work book. The instructor decided to throw in all these extra stuff to make things more complicated. Why can't she tell us to read the damn book and work in the work book. Last Friday she handed us a 5 page syllabus. Most of the work that she assigned was useless. Bullshit stuff that I know will not be of any use when I actually get working in the field. Anyway, she assigned like some group project. My topic is "Standardizations in hospice care". This is to be due next Friday, given orally, in front of the class, in the groups that she assigned us to. Blah!

Saturday was the first time I felt alive again. I got my first full pay check again. I got to spend almost every dime of it. It felt so good to just spend, spend, spend and not worry about a damn thing for a couple of hours. The first place I went to was, of course, Wal-mart. I did some early Christmas shopping. My family can get crossed out of my christmas list. Now, all I have left is Brian's family. I also browsed the mall. I did some shopping there for my self. Dang, it's been a long time since I went out and bought some shoes.

Mmmmm.....I can just taste it again, Red lobster. I had me some king crab legs. Crack open the shell, scoop out that delicate meat, and dip that baby in some hot butter. Oh my, that is the best........

Listening to: Erykah Badu "Love of My Life" <---this is a good song
Madonna "Die Another Day"

I received an email today from a friend and I thought this was so hilarious because I can relate to it since I'm always at Wal-mart in the wee hours of the morning.



14 THINGS TO DO AT WAL-MART...


1. Get 24 boxes of condoms & randomly put them in people's carts when they aren't looking.

2. Set all the alarm clocks in house wares to go off at 5 minute intervals.

3. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor to the rest rooms.

4. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official voice "code 3 in the warehouse".

5. Go to the Service Desk and ask to put a bag of M&M's on lay away.

6. Move a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.

7. Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers you'll only invite them in if they bring pillows from the bedding department.

8. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask 'Why can't you people just leave me alone?

9. While handling guns in the hunting department ask the clerk if he knows where the anti-depressants are.

10. Dart around the store suspiciously while loudly humming the theme from 'Mission Impossible'.

11. In the auto department practice your Madonna look using different size funnels.

12. Hide in the clothing rack and when people browse through say 'PICK ME! PICK ME!!!!!!'

13. When an announcement comes over the loud speaker assume the fetal position and scream "NO! NO! It's those voices again!"

and last but not least,

14. Go into a fitting room and yell real loudly, 'Hey! We're out of toilet paper in here!'

Oh what to do.....

I don't know what to do. I have a chance to work as a volunteer at a clinic in the OBGYN department. The catch is that I have to quit my current job and work as a volunteer with no pay. I want to at least have experience by the time I graduate, but I think it might be too soon to be doing volunteer work. I was thinking I would do volunteer work towards the end of school. I really don't know what to do and cannot make up my mind.......phewie!!!!!

100 things about me

1. I'm a cancer.
2. I love cats.
3. Listening to the rain eases my mind.
4. Spring is my favorite season.
5. I collect old soda bottles.
6. I also collect shot glasses.
7. I love the hot and spicy chicken bowls from Kyoto bowl.
8. I go to school part-time.
9. and I work full-time.
10. I get a manicure every 2 weeks.
11. I love flip flops.
12. I like a clean house
13. but I hate to clean.
14. I love the smell of freshly washed clothes.
15. I dislike slow drivers.
16. I'm a road rager.
17. I love to sleep in late.
18. I was born in Texas.
19. I no longer live there.
20. I live in Arizona.
21. I am engaged to a wonderful man.
22. I love Red Lobster.
23. I cry easily.
24. I love Bath and Body Works.
25. I still get carded when I buy liquor.
26. I've played the clarinet.
27. I am probably overly sensitive.
28. I am stubborn.
29. I enjoy listening to 80's music.
30. My favorite movies are the Joy Luck Club and The Color Purple.
31. I wear contacts.
32. I have freckles.
33. I get impatient easily.
34. I 've never broken a bone in my body.
35. I am right handed.
36. I worry too much.
37. I have 4 tatoos.
38. I don't like cooked onions
39. but I like them raw.
40. I have long hair.
41. I have one sister who is half korean and navajo and two half brothers that are navajo.
42. My parents divorced when I was 5.
43. My left pinky is a few inches shorter than my right.
44. I hate eggs.
45. I have a 10-gallon aquarium.
46. People say I snore.
47. I talk in my sleep.
48. I'm spoiled rotten and can be quite the bitch.
49. I was on Zoloft once.
50. Sometimes I wish I never knew about the internet.
51. I take birth control pills.
52. I am good at math.
53. I am forgetful.
54. I shop too much.
55. I love discounts.
56. I am not afraid to die.
57. I prefer my hair spiral permed.
58. I love the smell of coffee grains.
59. But I do not drink coffee.
60. I have not seen my mother in 15 years.
61. Ignorant people get on my nerves.
62. Dr. Pepper is my preferred soft drink.
63. I save the best for last.
64. I like swimming.
65. I enjoy mutton.
66. I used to herd sheep.
67. I was a tomboy.
68. I love shoes. I have many!
69. Procrastination pisses me off.
70. I hate cell phones,
71. but I have one.
72. I believe in god.
73. I ask too many questions.
74. I am easily amused.
75. I like cooking.
76. I had my first kiss when I was 12.
77. I want to learn the korean language.
78. I like to eat peanut butter and banana sandwiches.
79. I am fascinated with belly buttons.
80. I like being in charge.
81. I don't have any kids.
82. I want only one.
83. I don't usually remember my dreams.
84. I have trouble saying no.
85. I have been online since 1994.
86. I can type 90 WPM.
87. I used to be extremely shy.
88. I am a night person.
89. I talk to my self sometimes.
90. I cannot drive a stick shift.
91. I have no allergies.
92. I own too many CDS, books, and DVDs.
93. I hate driving.
94. I am jealous of people who don't have to work.
95. I was once a telemarketer.
96. I spend too much money.
97. I love bamboo plants.
98. I love kimchee.
99. Am I finished yet?
100. Awww..at last! I did it.

listening to: Faith Evans

Damn, it's so quiet here at work tonight. I bet you can hear a pin drop. I should have company here in a bit. The janitor man usually comes in around this time. He is my company for while, although he does not speak one word of english. I could fall asleep here if I wanted to. I think I will try that one of these nights. I have a collection of rubber bands here for my amusement and I keep a big, fat, bat by my side just in case somebody tries to jump me. I will use it too. After every one leaves I pull it out from under my desk and keep it by my side. This office is huge and there are plenty of hiding places for weirdos, rapists, and psychos.

Today my cat coughed up a huge hairball. At first I thought she was choking. The thought of CPR came to my mind. Heh. I love my kitty. She is my baby. She always sleeps at the foot of the bed, on my legs, or by my feet. She follows me every where I go. I try and go to the restroom she follows me in there. She has a weird habit. She likes to watch the water flush down the toilet. So sometimes I stand there by the toilet flushing the water for her. It's quite amusing actually. It's like she sits there with a big smile on her face. When you look at her right in the face and start talking she looks right back you and meows. I know she understands me....anyway I think it is back to work for me. I've been sitting here well over an hour. Nite nite.

It is freaking cold in here. I can't type because my fingers are sticking to the keys. I can't believe it is already Tuesday. I hope the rest of the week flies by this fast. I thought today was Monday. Lately, I have been lost. I don't know what day it is any more. I have to always flip out my planner to make sure I haven't missed any bills or appointments. Usually, I will remember all this stuff, but I guess my brain just can't take all the information I've been receiving lately. Duh.

I finally watched that movie, "Enough". We were testing out the new receiver that we bought over the weekend. That thing is freaking loud. I think I will be deaf by the time I turn 30. Anyway, that movie pisses me off. It just makes you wonder how many woman have to go through that bull shit or how may woman let themselves go through it.

Brian's brother and his family are coming down this weekend for the fair. Oh gosh, I hate having a full house. The last time we had a full house the rug became black from every one walking around with their shoes on. Not this time, I'm going to have every one take their shoes off by the door. We had to get the rug professionally cleaned and I don't want to do that again. I think it would be cool that they would be out here for a visit because there is hardly ever a time we get visitors. Every one seems to have their own lives now a days. I think I will really enjoy this weekend.

Of course....I'm here at work. This is the only time I get to sit in front of a computer. I hardly have time to sit down at my computer at home. I didn't do much over the weekend. I did visit wally world again on Saturday around 2am. I hate that place and some body needs to post my picture on the wall there so they can ban me from that place. I spent so much money. I feel so guilty. My plan this year is to shop for christmas gifts early. I just hope I have the time to visit my family around christmas time or I might have to ship every thing off. I really hope that does not end up happening because christmas is a time to spend time with friends and family.

My boss is here today. That bastard. He visits the office like every month. It is so annoying when he is here. You can hear his sickening laugh in the distance. It makes me want to barf. He walks around here like he's top dog. Woof! Woof! When he is around I take more breaks than I normally do. I do it to make a point. You see, we are not considered employees here sooooooo I act like i'm the shit. That was his decision. He had a choice to make us employees or independent contractors. He chose independent contractors. He did it because it will benefit the company. Shit! I don't give a shit. If he wants his employees to respect him then he should do it in return. I don't kiss his honky, Texan ass any more. Not this missy, never again.

On Friday when I got home from school Brian was sitting on the couch with a little, gold box in his hand. I sat next to him and he gave me the box. I opened it and it was a necklace with a heart-shaped locket. It was beautiful! He had a picture of both of us placed in there. I cried. I cried because I was happy. I cried because in mind I was thanking god for bringing Brian into my life.

Today is Friday. I have to work today. I didn't go to work yesterday because I wanted to study for my test today. I got an A+. Woo hoo. I think I might have to do that every Thursday. I have to study for my tests on Thursday nights because we have tests on Fridays. I am still tired. I don't think I get enough rest or maybe it just might be that I am really stressed out over work. I know I'm doing great at school, but work is stressing me out. I can't make my decision on whether I should work or not. Brian is practically begging for me to stay at home so I can focus a lot more on my studies. I am very stubborn. There are reasons that I want to work. One reason is that we will have so much money coming in so we can finally save, so money issues will never be our problem. Another reason is that since Brian's work schedule changed, I would not be seeing him during the time I stay home. It kinda' sucks, but I guess I have to get used to that too.

In school we are doing Patient Billing. We are using the Medisoft program. I think it is pretty self explanatory on how to work the program. The work book helps you along and I'm having no problems so far. I think I actually like this class and I don't mind doing this outside of the class room. I also finished all my exercise questions in the work book so I'm am ahead. I like to stay ahead just in case something drastic happens at work and I don't have time to do any of my homework. I think I get paranoid because I feel like I might get behind so I feel like I always have to stay ahead of every thing. Well, I have about 2 more hours here at school and then I have work around 2pm.

I am sooooooo tired today. I just can't imagine staying here at work for another hour, but i want to get a decent check this pay day. I want to work, but my brain is telling me to go lay down and sleep. I have to get used to these hours again. My month has been one big roller coaster. I feel bad because I sort of yelled at Brian today. I took out my frustration on him. I did apologize to him afterwards. I'm beginning to snap at every little thing now. Today at school I was watching this girl playing with her gum. She was twisting it around her fingers, blowing bubbles, and then popping it. It was sooo annoying and I just felt like telling her to be quiet and keep her damn gum in her mouth. I'm serious! I actually felt like saying that to her, but I didn't. I'm glad I didn't because I think she probably would have kicked my ass anyway. Usually I don't let things like that get to me, but since I've been in such of a whirl wind schedule I just don't have the tolerance any more.

I got this email a while ago and it actually put a smile on my face:)

"INDIAN FRIENDS"

when you are greasy
I will take your frybread and mutton stew away
when you are low on commods
I will share mine (except for the cheese)
when your rez ride's 4th donut tire blows out
I will wave at you as I go by
when you have too many hickies
I won't tell anyone who gave them to you (not even you)
when you smile
I won't laff at your IHS dental work
when your accent gets too thick
I will record you and figure it out later

"Friendship Poem"
When you are sad..
I will get you drunk (or fill you with ice cream) and help you plot
revenge against the scum-sucking bastard who made you sad.
When you are blue.
I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
When you smile
I'll know you finally got laid.
When you are scared
I will rag on you every chance I get.
When you are worried
I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be
When you are confused.
I will use little words to explain it to your dumb ass.
When you are sick.
Stay away from me until you're well again, I don't want whatever you
have.
When you fall
I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.
This is my oath
I pledge till the end. Why you may ask?
Because you are my friend.

What a dumbass! I got myself locked out of the office today. Hahaha. I had to get the security for the building to come and open the door for me. I was so pissed. There is supposed to be sales people that stay here until 6pm, but I guess they left early, locked the door, and left my butt outside. I forgive them this time, only because they gave us girls a little treat. They brought like this 7 layer dip and chip thing. It was delicious.

Today, I found out that Brian has to work 2nd shift now. At first I was pissed, but the more I thought about it the more it made sense. I don't have to drive back and forth during rush hour any more. Brian works from 2pm-11pm now. He also got another raise. I'm so proud ! I can now wake up at 6:30 or 7:00am (instead of 3:30am) to get ready for school. Brian can sleep in for all I care. He'll probably have more time to play his Playstation 2 now. Oh by the way, i'm really into that game, Tekken 4. I can kick Brian's ass battling him. Anyway, since the change of hours for Brian, I will now have to work from 2pm -11pm too (I'm considered an independent contractor so my hours can be flexible).

I'm here at work. I hear a lot of banging on the roof above me. I hear it almost every night. I wonder what the hell is going on up there every night. Maybe it's the boogie man. YYYYEEEE!!!! I might see something lurking in the shadows! I'm the only one here in the office too! It gets pretty lonely here. I miss working with the other girls.

Whoa! It's been a long weekend and I know it is going to be the start of a very long week day also. I just got this email message from my boss. He didn't even consider the fact that my days are very long. I let him know it too.


Bill,

I'm letting you know that I cannot give you more than 8 hrs during the week days because it will interfere with my hours at school. I am willing to work on Saturdays/Sundays.


---- Original Message -----
From: Bill Rioux
To:
Sent: Friday, October 11, 2002 1:52 PM
Subject: Omnidox Unitization


Greetings All:

I need you all to put in extra hours over the next week to meet the deadline for the Omnidox unitization project.
There are approximately 170,000 pages and the due date is Monday, October 21st. Let me know if you all can get this done. If not, I will have to send some out to some other unitizers which I would prefer not to do because you all do such good work and I know you need the hours.
Please contact me ASAP.

Thanks-Bill


----- Original Message -----
From: "Bill Rioux"
To:
Sent: Monday, October 14, 2002 1:06 PM
Subject: FW: Coders Unitization


Is this information correct? You usually average much more than this
per hour.--Everyone else is averaging 500+.

I didn't know you were going to school.---Congratulations and Good
Luck!
>
> Please put in as many hours as possible so we can meet our deadlines.
> Can you do any unitizing from home?>
>

Thanks-Bill

This is after I told him that I go to school and work and then he has the nerve to ask me if I could work at home too. Is he freaking nuts? I think he thinks we are robots. This is what I have to go through here at work.

Anyway, my weekend was was alright. We visited Wally world on Saturday. I hate going there because I always come out with a big cart of shit that I just don't need. We probably spent like 3-4 hrs in Walmart. I had to get some pillows to match our floor rug and a whole bed-in-bag kind of deal to match our bedroom. Oh garsh, some one needs to ban me from that place. On Sunday, we went to our usual Grey hound park venture. There wasn't any thing that fancied us so we left with our big pot of menudo and we headed home. I made some dough before we left and I made some fry bread with the menudo. It was a good weekend......

Today is my daddy's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY! HAPPPPY BIIIIRTTTHHHDAY TOOOOO MYYYY DADDDDDY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!!!! He turned 50 years old today. Wow! Don't the years go by so fast. I feel weird though because I am not going to spend his birthday with him. My sister is going to see him today. That should make up for me not being there. I called him early this morning to wish him a happy birthday. I love my daddy so much. My dad raised me, so in a way he is my mommy and my daddy.

So people wanna know a little more about me, huh? Well, I will try and give a little summary of my life....

So it begins......

My dad was in the Army and he was stationed in Korea. There he met my mother. They mingled, dated, fell in love, and got married. Once, my dad and mom got married they moved to Killeen, Texas. They lived there for about 7 years and then I popped out. For the first 5 years of my life I lived in Texas. Then a tragic turn of events happens, my mom and dad get a divorce and I was forced to move to the reservation. Those were some sad times. I still remember them too. Sometimes it's hard to even think about it, because to this day I still do not know why my mom and dad divorced. I don't dare ask my dad because I know deep down he still loves my mom because he told me so one day, just out of the blue. Anyway, so because of the divorce I moved to the reservation. I have lived in Fort Defiance, AZ, Gallup, NM, Kayenta, AZ, and St. Michaels, AZ, but most of my life was spent in Ft, Defiance. My dad lives there now and that is where I go back to when I want to go home. I have not seen my mother in 14 years. I miss her and love her, but I know that if i visited her, that it will not be the same.

And so it ends.....

That is a little summary of how I got to the reservation. I lived there for most of my life and enjoy it very much so. I love mutton and kim chee combined. I love eating mutton, cooked outside, green chili, and homemade tortillas cooked on the grill and for kim chee I love to eat it with plain ole' white rice. I love both worlds. I am me, that is who I'll always be.........

Well......I finished my all my tests, final tests, exercises out of the workbook, and dictations for transcription. Sheez, it's going by so fast. Today, for some reason I feel so drained of energy. I don't think my body and my brain is used to all this information over load from school and work. Blah! I shouldn't be complaining though, because this is what I wanted. I have to keep reminding my self that this is what I want and that will bring some more motivation for me. Come on guys cheer me on....

Why is it that you take your car in to get it worked on and you pay outrageous amounts of money to fix it and then something drastic goes wrong with the car again and then you have to shell out more money?!!?? I hate having a vehicle because there are so many financial responsiblities for having it. 1. You have to have insurance (so if you live in the city you pay more!) 2. Maintenance 3. Payments to keep the damn car and blah, blah, blah, BLLLLLLLAAHHH! Anyway, I needed to vent a bit. I feel better now. The reason i'm complaining is because I just got my brakes fixed in the front. They grinded the ummm..i don't know what it's called. I think it might be the rotor. They smoothed it out and replaced the brake pads. NOW, the back brakes are squeeking and it is so freaking annoying.

Next week I start Patient Billing. The book looks pretty thick so I know I have to do a lot of reading. I hope it's not too boring because if it is, it will go in one ear and then out the other

This morning I was in a comatose state of sleep when I was suddenly jolted awake by my kitty's sand paper tongue licking my face. She tends to do that every morning. I think she is telling me I need to take a shower. She likes to place her butt down on the pillow next to me in a sitting position. She probably thinks she is human. She has never been around any other cats. Brian And I are the only people she sees every day. I love my kitty sooo much....

Anyway, I am here at work. So far, I have only worked 2 days within this pay period. I don't know if I can handle these hours any more. It sure is tiring going back and forth from school, to work, picking up Brian, dropping off Brian, going back to work deal. I feel like quitting my job, but at the same time I don't want Brian to be handling all the financial responsibilities. I don't want to be a burden, but he tells me it is ok and to focus on school and that I don't even need to work. I don't know if I would quit my job. That is too drastic for me. I have been working since I don't know when.....like forever. Quitting work will be weird. I mean I know I get these long periods of 1 week or 2 weeks off, but not going back to work permanately? I don't think so. I think I just made up my mind right at this very moment. I will not quit my job. The only way I will leave my job is if the department goes down the drain and I get layed off. That's it. I will stay until that happens. I know it is going to happen sooner or later because we were a company with over 200 people working at home for us. These people were from places like India, Manila, and the United States, but since the depletion of work, we probably have like 20 all together. Ha ha. I think my boss deserves the blow he's getting. Four girls including me helped him start up this department. Once he got all the information he needed to know about how to do this and that he just buried us into the ground and treated us like shit. He hired his friends or families to take our roles. We were coding queens before he knew the operations of coding. Personally, I think it was the color of our skin that made him bring other people besides us to the top. I will never really know..... I just know that for the first 2 yrs with this company I busted my ass. I used to work 12-16 hrs a day. I did it because my boss asked me to. I did it because I thought I would get something grand in return, but he just used us.

Anyway...just me bitchin.......

I'm here at work. I hate coding off of court documents. They suck. Any way, I didn't get to visit Shiprock. Brian had to work. We still had a good time though. On Friday, Brian took me to Red Lobster. I had me the king crab legs. Man, that stuff is soooo good. I wish I had a plate in front of me right now. My day is just about over. I've been up since 4am. I should be getting off of work around 9:45pm.

Brian and I went to the fleamarket at Greyhound Park. We go there every Sunday to get some Menudo. Oh gosh they can make some killer menudo there. If ya'll don't know what menudo is then you don't know what you are missing. We also went to the Phoenix Zoo on Sunday. It was really nice and relaxing. The last time I went to the zoo was like 7 years ago. It has changed a lot since then. It seems as though there are less animals than before. For example, there was only 1 elephant, 1 tiger, 1 alligator, and the big, fat, ugly, snake was not there any more etc.

School is going pretty good. This week I have to test out of Transcription. My instructor assigned 8 tests. Wow, that is a load, but I think I should be finished transcribing and proofreading my work by Friday. A lot of people that I have class with are very behind. I feel so bad for them. Especially the lady that sits next to me. Her name is Bernadette. She is apache. I think she is around 37-40 yrs old. She is having a hard time. I think it is because she has been out of school for so long. Another thing that could be the prob is that she just found out that her 14 yr old daughter is pregnant and the guy doesn't want to be there for the baby. That is so sad. Why do guys do that? What runs through their minds? I know they are probably freaked out, but what makes a man just run off and not want his baby; his own blood? Bernadette says that she will be there for her daughter though. She will help take care of it and doesn't want the guy in the baby's life. She says that they could make it on their own. She seems to be a proud soon to be grandmother. I am so happy for her.

|friday five|


1. What size shoe do you wear?
9 - 9 1/2. Depends on what kind of shoes I wear.


2. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
haha...too many. I love shoes. I would probably estimate 40. includes sandals, flipflops, boots, sneakers etc.


3. What type of shoe do you prefer (boots, sneakers, pumps, etc.)?
SANDALS. I love them because they are comfortable and you can slip them on easlily. sneakers if i'm walking long distance.


4. Describe your favorite pair of shoes. Why are they your favorite?
My favorite pair of shoes will be my plain, black flip flops that I bought from target. They got little bite marks from my cat:)


5. What's the most you've spent on one pair of shoes?
$130 on a pair of nike running shoes that I thought were so awesome. I had to have them.

Today is a good day. I'm sitting here in class not doing a damn thing. I finished all my work a week early. Yay! I am such a nerd, a motivated one. The more I think about work, the more I want to excel in my studies. I just want to get away from my current job and start a new career. If only I can fast forward time and be done with school. It's been almost a month since I started school. So far I have three A's. I am such a good girl.

I think this weekend we are going to go back to the reservation. If I'm understanding correctly, we are going to go to the fair in Shiprock, but I still have to find out if our work came through FedEx today. Deep down I really hope that work doesn't call me in because I really want to go out of town this weekend. We haven't gone any where lately and this should be a fun weekend for both Brian and I. Food stands and squash hunting are my main reasons why I want to go to the fair. I want some steamed corn stew, kneel down bread, and of course you can't forget that fry bread.

Heh, I found out yesterday that the IRS still have not received my 1040 form. I was so pissed yesterday. I thought all this time H&R Block filed it electronically for me, come to find out they didn't. So I now have penalities and what not for not sending it in before April 15th. I filled out a form 9465 too, to make payments on what I owed to federal. I was sending in my payments and they were accepting each and every one of them. Couldn't they have at least notified me that they haven't received last year's tax forms? I guess it could be my fault too for assuming that H&R Block was going to send them in for me. I learned a very good lesson yesterday.

I thought this was funny because this happened to me a couple of times, but not in a restroom.

THE WASHROOM

Leaving Montreal, I decided to stop at one of those rest areas on the side
of the road. I go into the washroom. The first stall is taken, so I go into
the second stall. I had just sat down when I hear a voice from the other
stall............" Hi there, how is it going? " Okay, I am not the type to
strike up conversations with strangers in washrooms on the side of the road.
I didn't know what to say, so finally I say: -"Not bad............" Then the
voice says: "So, what are you doing?" I am starting to find this a bit
weird, but I say: - "Well, I'm going back east............... " Then I hear
the person, all flustered, say: " Look, I'll call you back-every time I ask
you a question this idiot in the next stall keeps answering me!!!"

Yay! Yesterday I got a call from work. We finally have work. Time to make some more of that money. I didn't do much yesterday or the day before. Lately, I have been staying 2 hrs after class to stay ahead on class work. So far, I have finished all of my dictations. We had to dictate 12 scripts. Now, I just have to do my work book for the remaining time. I have been eating out almost every day. I am getting really sick of fast food. I hate eating it, but when you are tired and hungry, you just want to get any thing that is to go. I haven't been up to cooking at home for a while. I think today I will cook though because I'm tired of Mcdonald's, Burger King, and Kyoto Bowl.
Damn, it is getting cold here. It is really cold in the morning and late at night. I actually have to turn off the air conditioner at night or else we'll freeze our asses. It started getting really cold about two mornings ago. We had to turn the heater on in the car. Man, that means I have to start wearing shoes all the time. I like to wear my flip flops or sandals. Well, I'm off to the shower. I need to get ready for school. I have to go back to my weird schedule again. 8-12am (school), 12:30pm-2:15pm (work), 2:15pm (clock out of work and get Brian), 3:30pm (clock back in at work and try and work my 8 hrs for the day).

Went to school today, same ole' thing. Transcription sucks! I definitely don't like it. We wear these earphones and listen to dictations from doctors. They talk too damn fast. You have to stop and rewind every 2 seconds. I don't understand why they throw us into transcription when we have not taken medical terminology. There are words like: hypercholesterolemia, dysrhythmia, thrombophlebitis etc. They want us to dicate words like that? It's very frustrating when you are trying to type as fast as you can and you don't even know how to spell the damn word.

Our neighbor downstairs got kicked out of her apartment. She was another weird one. She always walked around half naked. I think she was a prostitute or dancer at a strip club. At night you could hear her singing at the top of her lungs. Sometimes, she would get so loud we would have to stomp on the floor just to shut her up. I know a couple of times she got pissed off because she started slamming things around downstairs. I am so glad she left.

I'm listening to Stacey Q "Two of hearts"

I never said i wasn't gonna tell nobody
no baby
But desperate lover, I can't keep it to myself
oh no
When we're together it's like hot coals in a fire
oh baby
My body's burning so come on heat my desire
come on come on

Two of hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Two of hearts
I need you, I need you
Two of hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Two of hearts
come on, come on

People get jealous cuz we always stay together
yeah baby
I guess they really want a love like yours and mine
together forever
I never thought that I could ever be this happy
yeah baby
My prayers were answered, boy you came in the nick of time
ohhh

I got this feeling that you're going to stay
I never knew that it could happen this way
Before I met you I was falling apart
But now at last I really know we're made of

(chorus)

I never said I wasn't gonna tell nobody
no baby
But desperate lover, I can't keep it to myself
oh no
When we're together it's like hot coals in a fire
oh baby
My body's burning so come on heat my desire
ohhh

I got this feeling that you're going to stay
I never knew that it could happen this way
Before I met you I was falling apart
But now at last I really know we're made of

(chorus)

PICTURES OF MY GIGI:

Well, over the weekend I managed to do some of my transcription work at home. There were a lot of medical terms and I had to whip out my medical dictionary. If I calculated correctly, I would have to work on my work book every night at home in order to get my work done by the due date.

Work still hasn't called. I didn't work all last week. There is no communicaton from work, so I really don't know what is going on. Maybe, they fired us and didn't even tell us. They probably would do that too. Basically, I just don't care about that company any more. Brian keeps telling me don't worry about work. He tells me to focus more on school rather than work. He encourages me to do a lot a things. He is my motivation, my lover, my destiny, my best friend.

I heard such bad news over the weekend. My grandmother is very sick. She is about 91 years old and is from Coalmine, NM. A few weeks back, she was flown to flagstaff for blood clots on her leg. They gave her some blood thinner to take. It worked, but I guess it worked too much. She soon began to get very sick. She didn't even want to eat any more and she began to have seizures. She was again taken to the hospital in Fort Defiance and they found that she was hemmoraging from the brain. The outcome doesn't look too good and they tell us that she might go into a coma soon. I have not gone back home to the reservation to see my grandmother. For some reason, I am too afraid. I want to see her, but I don't want to see her like that.

I am still sleepy. I had to get myself up though because my stomache was growling. I had to go eat something. I went to the refrigerator, looked around, walked to the living room, and turned on the tv. There was nothing good to watch, so I had the urge to go to the computer and check my email. Don't you just hate the fact that your email is full of junk mail. I despise them and if I had one teeny tiny wish (besides money) I would wish for my inbox to never, ever have any junk mail!

Any way, I finished my third week of school. On Monday, we start transcription. She assigned tons of assignments already, so im going to probaby work on it tomorrow. I didn't know you can get certified to be a medical transcriptionist. Oh well, you learn new things ever day. I don't think I would want to do that any way.

Last night, my neighbor

(let's call her sarah)

was yelling like she lost her mind last night. She lives right across from me. Oh my gosh! She is the neighbor from hell. She used to come over almost every day to borrow my telephone. One time, I told her my phone broke and then she had the nerve to ask to use my cell phone. I mean, she is one messed up person if you ask me. She and her boyfriend practically fight every day. I just can't see how people can live that way for so long, ya know? I guess it's just the attachment. Some people don't want to end up alone

Things I'm really loving at the moment:
-Brian
-80's music
-my cat
-any thing sweet, pastries..mMM
-my extra credit work for school

My sister is one lucky girl. She just told me that she got the tribe to pay for her school. Every month she gets 900 and some odd dollars from the tribe. And oh, they are also paying for her tuition. I think I'm jealous. I tried getting the tribe to help me with my tuition, but I got denied. I was so sad. I have to pay for every thing myself. She also got a car from my dad. My dad just gave her a car! Did he give me a car??!!? No, he didn't. I had to suffer and stuff just to save up for a down payment for my car a couple years back. I did every thing on my own. My dad is just babying her. I used to be daddy's girl when I used to live under my dad's roof, but since I moved out about 7 years ago she became daddy's girl. I want to be daddy's girl again! I think I feel sick to my stomache now. Blah!

Well.....I'm here at school right now. I finished all my assignments for the week. I finished early. Wooo hoo. I get to do some extra credit work for the rest of the week. This morning I almost over slept. I got back around 6am from dropping Brian off and Iayed down to watch the morning news. I must have dozed off because by the time I woke up it was 7:30am and school starts at 8am. I made it just in time though. I was trying to make it a habit to be at school 15 minutes before 8, but today I blew it. So right now, I'm sitting here waiting for Brian to get off of work again.

Work, still hasn't called. I haven't worked all week. It sucks. My boss needs to get his act together and get some people on the ball so we can have work in our department or better yet, just close the damn department down. Naw, I'm kidding. Not yet. I want to at least finish school first then he can close the department down.

Don't you just hate it when people drive like 5 miles an hour in the fast lane? It never fails. Every day I always have to drive behind somebody who is so slow. And you know what really gets me mad? It's when they decide to step on the gas when you try and pass them. Curse them! LOL.

Anyway, my kitty is getting a bath. Earlier she jumped out of the tub and got the rug wet. I had to snatch her back up from her hiding place to put her back in the tub. She deserves a bath. When I got home today I found that she was digging in the trash and decided to dig up some toilet paper and q-tips out of the trash. They were laying all over the living room floor.

We went to blockbuster today and checked out two more movies (Frailty and 40 days and 40 nights). We got the freedom pass thing that they are offering. I think it is pretty cool that blockbuster came out with that. You can rent two dvd movies at time. No extending viewing fees and due date. All you have to do is bring back the two movies and exchange it for two more. The freedom pass lasts for about a month and only costs $19.99 a month..

I didn't do much over the weekend, but on Saturday Brian and I went to his father's house to roast some mutton. We brought some back with us the last time we went back to the reservation. Brian asked his step mother to make some tortillas. Boy, we had a feast! It was so delicious. Mutton has to be in every navajo indian's diet. I'm only joking. It is good though, when you can get a chance to have it. I wanted to go back during the navajo nation fair to eat at those food stands and bring back some of the squash they sell by the road side. I didn't get a chance to go back though. Brian and I had to work that weekend.

School went by really quick today. I think I was lost in my book the whole time. A lot of the people that I have class with are behind. I try and help them when ever I can. There are also other indians in that program with me. Four navajos and one apache. I like to listen to their stories from back home, the reservation. It brings back a rush of memories. I miss it, but I would rather be out here where there are more opportunities.

I also added a new addition to my aquarium. I bought a fantail goldfish. It is huge, compared to the one that I have in there already. My aquarium consists of one pleco algae eater, three snails, and two fantail goldfish. I used to have a whole collection, but they died.

I was soooo tired yesterday. I didn't even make it to work. I didn't want to work in the other department any way. Brian took me to red lobster yesterday. MMMmmm. I had me the 30 shrimp combo. I chose shrimp scampi and shrimp pasta. I also had me a big berry margarita. It's not that often that I get to drink an alcoholic beverage. A year ago I think I let alcohol get the best of me though. That was when I used to be with my ex and really didn't give a shit. He put me through a lot of hell. It was the usual bastard guy, cheating, lieing and all the bad stuff. That led me to drinking and clubbing and staying up all hours of the night. Now, I think I live my life decently. Every now and then I do go out and have some fun, but I do not let it get the best of me any more. These days I do know what is right from wrong. I am so glad I did all that crazy stuff earlier in my life. Eventually a person just gets tired of being in the fast lane.

Well, as for school, it's going just fine. I think I am learning a lot more now. As a matter of fact, I have to get all these assignments that I have done by Monday. We will be starting Transcription soon. I don't think I will look forward to that. I can't wait until I get into Medical Terminology and Anatomy/Physiology. I know I will have a load of homework. I am ready for it. My last classes should be the medical coding classes. I think that is good because that will be fresh in my memory by the time I finish school. I just can't wait until the day. I can finally leave my job. I hate my job so much, but I stay because I make good money when ever we do have work, but so far, work just hasn't been there, but it's fine with me too because Brian is there for me. He is such a good person. I am so glad I found him and that he is in my life now.

My cat, she is laying on the bed next to me. I bought her these little press on nail sort of things called SoftPaws. I think they are pretty cool. She's got some hot pink soft paws. They are little nail caps that you can place onto her nails so she cannot scratch on you or your couches. They are a pretty penny, but I think they are worth it because you wouldn't have to have your cat declawed.

Bleh! Bleh! Blehhhhh! I am so tired! I just got home from work. I had to work in a different department today. I hate working on that side, but right now, I just don't care. For the past month or two I have not been working my full 40 hr week. If I could only get lucky and win that power ball. LOL. Yeah right! La da dee da da duh....

Well, I got my first A+ at school. I am so proud of myself :). Another typical day...... I woke up took Brian to work, came home, fell asleep for about 15 min and then got up to go take a shower. After my shower, I sat around for a bit and watched the morning news. My cat was bothering me all morning. She gives me a lot of grief. Did I mention she is such a spoiled brat? She came into our lives when she was a tiny little kitten. LOL. She was born in Kayenta, AZ. Rez style. The mama didn't want the babies so I snatched one and took her back with me. The day we brought her back we had to buy all the essentials for that little shit. Litter box, pooper scooper, food...etc. She is a calico cat. Her name is Kali, but for some reason I call her Gigie. I just got used to calling her that, but her tag still says Cali (that reminds me I need to go buy her a new tag at Pet's Mart.

Today was a normal day, nothing drastic happened today. We got our scrubs for school. I hate them! Do I want to wear them for the rest of my life? I just had the urge to pick at my butt all day. Those scrubs can really wedge you. Any way, I heard something soooooooo hilarious the other day. My friend, Michele, told me what had happened to her sister. I guess her sister was at work, she just finished eating her lunch, and she felt this urge to take a shit. So she made her way to the restroom. Sat down for about 5 minutes. Finished and washed her hands. She walks out of the restroom and while she was doing that she felt something tugging at her butt, but didn't think any thing of it. She walks a few steps down the hall way and sees this guy that she knows, so she smiles and says hi to him, but while she was saying hi to him she noticed that he had the weirdest look on his face. So she walks down the hallway some more and then for some reason she felt something tugging at her butt again, so she stops, looks down, touches her butt, and then turns around. AND there lying behind her was a trail of toilet paper hanging out of her pants with a big, black, shit stain on there! OMG!!! I was cracking up!! I about died when I heard that story. Poor thing. Her sister was probably sooooo embarrassed. Has that happened to any of y'all? LOL. I think I will always check my butt before I get out of the restroom stall from now on.

Okay, now for ndngirl's questions. By the way, I love reading your blog too! At the end of a hard day sometimes your blogs really crack me. Thanks.

Answers to ndngirl's questions:

Brian: My fiance'

Reason for taking the Medical Records Specialist Program:

Well, since I practically code all day on legal documents, why not take up medical coding? I heard there is a lot in need for medical coding so I decided to take it. Plus, I know insurance, hospitals, Dr. offices etc...will always be here, so I would not have to worry about not having a job in the future. (crosses fingers)