well, got a lot of things going on in my life. Every thing seems to be so fuzzy. i feel so afraid. there's a lot of life changing stuff thats probably going to happen in a couple of months and i just don't know if i would be making the right decision. sometimes, i wish i could just take a glance into the future. i guess i'm just suffering from a lot of anxiety and i just don't know how to deal with it.

anyway, enough about that. i will soon find out what my future will be tomorrow evening. hopefully, it will turn out for the good.

so i guess life with me is just the typical ups and downs. some days i'm just as cool as a cat and other days i'm the bitch from hell. i feel bad for brian when i'm that bitch from hell. he takes it though, he takes it like a man and understands what i go through. i love that in a man. i love him.

i hope you all had a great new year. i had a good time with a couple of friends that we invited over. we drank champagne, listened to some music, and talked all night long. it was good until midnight struck and heard all them damn gun shots and fire crackers. it was scary as hell, but it was fun.