i'm still alive.....i just don't seem to have enough time during the day any more to do anything. the first few days in the new house was very depressing to me. i really missed my apartment. i'm over it now. i've adjusted to living in the house now. i've been doing a lot of painting. the ceiling, the stair case walls, kitchen, and soon the 2nd bedroom. i tell ya its a lot of work. i've been under a lot of stress these past 2 months. i had to deal with a lot of paper work with the home buying thing, i haven't smoked a cigarette in 13 days, and now i have to go into surgery this thursday. it requires anesthesia and i'm not too fond of the idea. so my mind is in a limbo right now i'm so irritable at times. i'm just taking it one step at a time....