gawd, last night brian pulled one of them spur of the moment things on me. i was so tired yesterday and i wanted to come home to lay down, watch some tv, and relax, but as soon as i got home he had his father, half sister, and step mom there. he was preparing to bbq. out of all nights he decided to do it on a week day. i had to prepare most of the stuff and by the time the night was over i was so exhausted. brian bought stuff that would have fed 3 families and we ended up cooking every thing that he bought. i was a little annoyed last night at the fact that by the time it was ready for his family to leave they packed up mostly every thing that was cooked. they left brian and i two brauts and two hot dogs. i mean, we had hamburgers, steaks, brauts, hotdogs, and we roasted some green chili. they took everything! i swear, i hate to be mean, but brian's family is damn greedy! when every one left i had a talk with brian. i let him know that i don't want him to do this on a week day anymore. it's just too much for me. especially since i work and go to school.

pay day is today. i'm contemplating on whether i should leave from here and go home. this week has really got the best of me. i'm totally wore out! i catch myself nodding off here and there. i can't stay focused and my eyes get blurry from lack of sleep. i know this is not healthy at all. i should probably make an appointment with the doc and see if there is something i could do.....