i'm am so tired. i'm slacking here at work. basically, all i have been doing is internet surfing most of the time. i am so lazy from the day off on new years day. i don't even want to think about new years eve. sheesh, my cousin actually dragged us out to a bar. i was reluctant to go. i don't know what changed my mind, but i just remember saying what the hell. i have not seen my cousin in quite a while and she came into town to celebrate the new years with us. so i ended up at this one particular bar. i really don't want to say because i have visited there frequently in my crazy days. i am so glad i didn't recognize any one there. i couldn't even handle the one mixed drink i ordered. i sipped on that glass for about 2 or 3 hrs. that was it for me. so that was my new years. it was okay. i felt awkard going out again. i know it will probably be the last time too. i'm just not into the bar/club scene any more.

brian started a temporary job today. one of his former employers called him up to do a job that will probably last for a week. he is going to pay him under the table so his unemployment benefits wouldn't get stripped from him. Brian, has been a housewife for a couple of days. i come home and the place is cleaned and dinner is cooked. he is so sweet. i don't even have to ask him to do those things. i think these couple of days of work will get him out of the house. i know he was getting tired of staying home.

hmmmmm....guess what? i found like this big black pocket knife in my purse today. for some reason i stuck my hand at the very bottom of the purse today and felt the knife. i pulled it out and inspected it. then the thought of december 18 ran through my mind. i'm wondering if that asshole tossed his knife in my purse. i wonder if this is his knife...it's such a scary thought. i will probably have to ask around tonight and see if anyone i know lost a pocket knife...if not...then i guess its that asshole purse snatchers knife.....