its is official, my co-worker, at my other job is going to begin working with me. for some reason, i feel like this dark cloud that was around me is now gone. i've been working with my co-worker for a little over 5 years. the good thing about it is that her and i are going to be the only people in that office.

brian and i are still going to stay in town this thanksgiving. i decided i'm still going to cook. i've cooked almost every year, and this year, hopefully, won't be any different. i've got all the fixings: pumpkin pie, cranberry sauce, green bean casserole, fruit salad, my famous mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes w/ marshallows, fresh baked rolls, and of course we can't forget the main course, the turkey! yes, all that for brian i to eat. we are going to have 4 days off, so we will definately have turkey every day.

i went to go see that movie gothica. i thought it was good in a sick kind of way. brian and i just got back from the movies. it's colder than hell out there. what in the world is going on? it was like in the mid 80's about 3 days ago and now it's COLD. i heard it's going to be in the 60's next week. i'm sorta looking forward to it though. we need it to rain and be cold here too. i get tired of all that heat, especially since they turned the air conditioner off for the winter.

today, i actually talked to my mother. she actually decided to call me. it was a big surprise for me. she never calls me. i was the one to always call her. i think i just stopped calling because i was tired of being the person trying to contact her all the time. she must have missed me. it's probably been 7 months since i last talked to her. she still sounds the same. i could hear in her voice that she had missed me. anyway, the conversation with her ended with her saying that she was going to call her sister in korea. i cannot imagine how her sister (my aunt) looks. i've never met any of my mother's side of the family because they are all from korea. i wasn't born in korea nor have i ever been to korea. i just wish sometimes though that i was. maybe my life would have turned out differently. i may never know.

it's friday! it's friday! it's friday! next week i only work for three days and i will be off on thursday and friday. i'm debating on whether i should work at the other job, since i would have so much time on my hands. i don't know, i guess i will just have to wait and see when the time comes.......anyway, it's friday! it's friday! it's friday. i hope you all have a nice weekend!

i'm not going home for thanksgiving. i feel really bad for not going. brian and i were planning on having thanksgiving dinner with his sister out here in phoenix, but i guess plans changed. she has decided that she is going to go home to tuba city and celebrate with her parents. i guess it will be just brian and i for thanksgiving. i think thanksgiving this year will definitely be different......we might just end up eating dinner at some restaraunt in town, although, we do have a turkey sitting in the freezer. i don't know, we'll see....these days i just go with the flow. i try and not plan anything anymore because plans always change.

yesterday we had an employee appreciation day at the new job that i have. i tell ya, i was really surprised with what they gave me. yesterday they were giving out envelopes at our little function and lo and behold, i open the envelope and find a little note telling me that i will receive a $150.00 incentive check. i about cried. i've only been at that place for a little over 2 months and i already receive an incentive check. i know i was getting praises at the new job, but i didn't know i was doing that good. hmmm...maybe this job might turn out all right after all. i'm trying to get one of my other co-workers to come work with me, my boss is probably going to call her today to set up an interview with her. i hope they like her and want to hire her on. if she gets hired, she would be working in the office with me.

such a dilemma.......why can't i find some decent black shoes. The stores now a days sell some ugly ass granny shoes. i don't like the style of shoes they have out now. during the summer i practically wear slippers and sandals, but when it comes time for winter, i of course, have to go back to wearing shoes. yeserday, i was going from store to store trying to look for some black shoes, but all i could find are those weird ass shoes. i don't know, i'm just not into that style. it reminds me of my grandma's sheep herding clogs. i'm going to go out today and look for some decent shoes. do you guys or gals have the same problem as i do, or is it just me?

i'm just about done with my christmas shopping. i always start in october. i hate procrastinating on things, so i always start early. i need to get a gift certificate for my brother and brian's present. I'm not sure what to get brian yet, i have some gifts in mind, but i'm not sure what to choose out of my list of things i want to get him. i like to try and get gifts that people will actually use.

i think i have my mind set on getting him a cd player for his truck. the truck that he has now came with the manufactured stereo system, tape deck and all. it sounds pretty trashy too. the only dilemma that i have is that i don't know what is good and what he would like. brian is kind of picky about his electronic and tool stuff. i hate to ask him about what he likes about stereo systems because it will definitely give away the surprise. i just love to see people's faces light up when they open gifts. i will just have to go with my instinct and hope that he likes what i get him. if not, tough shit.

well, work is the same. i still hate it with a passion. the lady that i work with decided to take a whole fucking week off, so i'm stuck to fend for myself. i feel like such a helpless puppy in that office. i wish she would show me how to do things thoroughly. the other day she showed me how to check and see if people are qualified for ACHHHS, but she didn't show me all the steps and so i did my job half ass. i will have to wait until she gets back to show me the rest of the steps. nobody in that damn building knows how to do it, so the paper work has to sit there on her desk until she gets back. i swear, if i stay there for a year or more than a year, please, please shoot me. i need to hurry up and get my job experience and get the hell out of that place. i'm so unhappy there and cannot see my self working there over a year.

yay! another week down......this week went by faster than last week. i am so glad that it is friday. the weekend is my time to sit down and relax and get caught up on things that i've missed during the week.

nothing too exciting has been going on my life.....this is my routine m-f:

1. get up at 3:30am.
2. take a shower.
3. get dressed.
4. play/feed cats.
5. leave at 4:15am
6. clock in at work
7. read email/surf internet
8. work a bit
9. go to breakfast (7:00am)
10. 7:45am come back from breakfast
11. work a bit more.
12. surf a bit more.
13. clock out at 8:30am
14. go to the parking garage, get in car, and drive to second job.
15. clock in at 8:30am at second job.
16. start working and be bored out of my mind until 5pm.
17. clock out at 5pm.
18. get in car and fight traffic.
19. get home.
20. change into jammies.
22. eat dinner.
21. watch a little tv.
22. get ready for bed.
23. set alarm for 3:30am

this is my routine during the weekday. what an exciting life i have.

my halloween night was spent indoors watching the discovery health channel. I was watching a gastric bypass being done. it was interesting to watch. i didn't get any kids knocking on my door for halloween. besides, i didn't have candy for them anyway. i didn't have time to stop by the store to get any. If any came to the door i was thinking of giving them some pencils, canned food, or something. heh. i wasn't in the mood to do any thing, so i just vegged out on the sofa.

on saturday, i went to watch the chainsaw massacre. i was frightened most of the time. i had to cover my eyes or look away during some parts of the movie because i was too afraid to see what was gonna happen. i didn't like that the theatre was packed to capacity, but i did enjoy the movie. brian's half sister was in town for her track meet so we swiped her away from her coach and team for a couple of hours to spend some time with her. dang, we saw her like almost a year ago and she's a woman now! it's amazing how people can transform so quickly...heh.

i'm beginning to really hate my new job. i found out yesterday that the lady i work with is going to be taking another position within the company. she's gonna be the clinical director's assistant. the clinical director is our boss and the lady i work with is buddy buddy with the boss. i feel like i'm back in the same situation i was at when i was working full time at the other job. i'm still in the process of job hunting. i just can't see my self working there for more than a year. why is my life so complex? why can't it just run smoothly for once, dang!