friday is finally here. i thought i was gonna give up on thursday. it never fails, i always get burnt out by the time thursday rolls around. i have to work two jobs though, the more you make, the more bills you have, that's all i hafta say.......i totally forgot today was halloween. i saw somebody walking around outside in a frankenstein costume and a man dressed as a clown driving on his way to work early this morning.

nothing too exciting going in my life right now. everything is totally the same, months and years can pass, and things will always remain the same. i don't go out anymore, i dont' see my friends much anymore, i don't do anything. PERIOD! i basically don't have a life, my time is devoted to work. i hate the word, but i know that i have to work in order to live a normal life.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN Y'ALL! don't eat too much candy cause your teeth is gonna rot. heh.

its been a long time......i'm still hurting from my visit to the oral surgeon. i could still feel the stitches in the back of my mouth and eating is the most painful experience at this point in my life. on the third day after my surgery, i decided to eat some spagetti, i just couldn't chew! it took me almost 3 hours to eat spaghetti.

this past weekend i went to kayenta because brian and i decided we needed to get the hell out of phoenix. i was still in pain from the surgery and i was drugged half the time while i was in kayenta. i did have a great time though. on saturday, we spent half day at brian's grandmother's house. we got there just in time because they were in the process of butchering a sheep. its been a long time since i last watched a butchering. it was quite an experience. at first i was disgusted and felt so bad for watching it, but then i started to think about it, and i was thinking to myself that i shouldn't be thinking that way because most of my ancestors hunted for food and this is the way people survived back in the days.

we brought brian's neices and nephews with us on that long journey to his grandmother's house. his grandmother lives about 30 miles off the highway. you have to have truck to get up to that place because the terrain is rough. there's rocks every where, winding roads, and there's even times when the road crosses throught small streams. you can run into a lot of wildlife while you are on that journey. it takes about an hour to get there, but it doesn't seem that long when there is so much to see. the view from the mountains can be so breath taking and the is well worth it.

on the way back to phoenix brian and i stopped at a food stand to get our fix. i had me some corn stew and fry bread. it's my favorite. brian had his usual mutton sandwich. we sat at that food stand for a long time, brian even striked up a conversation with the old lady that was cooking the food. brian speaks fluent navajo. i don't speak it at all. i just understand some of it. it's funny that i don't speak navajo because i grew up with my family speaking navajo/english. i should have picked up the language, but for some reason i just didn't. i don't know, maybe i just didn't want to learn. i regret it to this day though. someday though, i will learn to speak it fluently.

well, i have to get ready to go to my second job. hopefully, you understand what the heck i wrote because this took me 5 minutes to type.

what a horrible, horrible, experience! i tell ya, i was scared. i made my entrance into that little room yesterday and i just remember thinking that i should go pee, but then i didn't want to leave the room because i felt that i probably would have left the building instead of going to the restroom. i was seated immediately when i entered the room. the room was small, and the whole room was decorated with paintings. my eyes were fixated on a particular painting while i sat on that chair. the painting was an oil painting and it had 3 women standing. it looked like they were laughing, but then again they looked pretty old, you couldn't really tell what the painting was because paint was just splashed all over the place. i sat there for about 15 minutes staring at that painting when the doctor walked into the room. he immediately told his assistant to strap me down. i'm kidding. she didn't strap me down, but it was interesting to see these straps that were under a table across the way from me. i sat there wondering if they would have to use those things on me. anyway, after the assistant prepped me the doctor turned on his working lamp. it was huge. i couldn't even open my eyes because that light was so bright. i wanted to watch every thing he was gonna use, but i couldn't even squint to see. i did catch a glimpse of how long that freaking needle was though. he probably shot me up about 4 times on each side of the mouth. i hate them shots. it hurt so much, it actually brought tears to my eyes. he finished and told me to hold tight and then he left the room. they usually give the novacaine some time to take it's effect. i really didn't know what to expect at this point, so i just sat there. my legs were shaking and i could feel my cheeks and lips getting numb. i probably sat there for about 10 mintues and finally the doctor came in and he asked me if i was numb yet. i said 'yes' and he prepped himself to work on me. dang, i swear, i am so glad i'm finally over this, and i will never, ever, have to do any kind of shit like this again. it is the worst pain i've ever felt in the world. actually, i hear giving birth is the worst pain in the world, but i don't know that yet, so this is probably the worst freaking pain i've ever felt. he started to work on my bottom left impacted wisdom tooth. that sucker wasn't even sticking out. it was some where underneath my gums, but he magically found it. all i remember is the doctor telling me that there was going to be a lot of pressure and jerking. he was right. my face was being pulled every which way, and i could hear him cracking my tooth. i guess when he cracked my tooth, i felt the sharpest pain. i immediately alerted him that i could feel it. he pulled out that needle again, and shot me up with some more novacaine. that shit was fucked up. i was feeling every thing he was doing. especially when he stuck that fucking needle where i could feel the pain. i was pretty pissed off, scared, and i wanted to knock that doctor on the side of the head for making me feel that pain. they took out 3 impacted wisdom teeth yesterday. i don't ever wanna go through that again. i bled all freaking day from where he sliced and dug for them teeth. i have stitches in my mouth now, and it's a freaking bitch trying to swallow, let alone trying to eat. my whole face is swollen. yesterday they gave me some codeine tablets. i took 2 of them suckers. that shit didn't work at all. they also gave me 400mg tablets of ibuprofen. i took one of those with those codeine tablets and finally the pain subsided. the pain afterward is the hardest to deal with. i coudn't even lay down yesterday. i had to keep my head elevated because the bleeding just wouldn't stop. hmmm...the description of the pain i felt yesterday: IT'S TEN TIMES WORSE THAN A ROTTEN TOOTH!!!

i'm so scared! i have an appointment today with the oral surgeon to get the rest of my wisdom teeth surgically removed. i really don't know what to expect. i'd rather sit in my soiled underwear than be at that appointment today.

i have about 15 more minutes until i have to take a hop and a skip to my other job. i really don't want to be there today because i'm so behind. i've noticed that toward the end of each month it is like that. i still say this job isn't just for one person, it's like for 3 people. i know, i complain too much, but i deserve to complain.

ok, gotta go. i work up until 12 today and then i'm off to the hopsital to be scared shitless.

i was watching vh1 the other day and i saw a preview about a show called "I love the 80s strikes back". i think that it's cool because i grew up in the 80's. when i think of the 80s, i think of:

-cabbage patch kids
-kangaROOS (those shoes with pockets that we got from tribal clothes;)
-smurfs
-scratch and sniff stickers
-ghostbusters
-rainbow bright
-neon colored clothing and accessories
-parachute pants
-the goonies
-"you can't do that on television" a show that aired on nickelodeon
-transformers
-garbage pail kids
-pac man
-banana seat bikes
-rubik's cube
-ronald reagan
-girl's rolling up their pants and having multi-layered and multi-colored socks
-E.T.
-Cds
-break dancing
-halley's comet

these are a just a few that come to mind at the moment. i do try and collect/find things from the 80's though. just last month i found some cabbage patch figurines from 1984. if you can remember other things that i didn't list, then enlighten me....

it's been a long time....... my life at this point has been one big whirl wind. I'm always exhausted, and because i'm so exhausted, i just don't want to do anything during the week. it's just work, work, work, and more work. the weekends are so precious to me. i spend most of my weekends in the living room, you can find me laying on the couch with a remote in one hand. ahhhhh, i wish i t were the weekend starting all over again.

i'm here at work. there's actually no one here and it's a bit eerie. my cousin is usually here before me, but for some reason she isn't here today. i doubt she's gonna come in any time soon because she wouldn't want to spend the rest of the day with the bastards from the other department. well, we'll see if anybody else in my department comes in, if not, i will just have to eat breakfast by my self.

una limonada por favor

just been really busy. i've been neglecting, i know, i know. i finally got the time to load some of the pics from the WR parade in september. you can find it in the photos section.

i've just been so busy these days. i work about 13 hour days and sometimes i forget to eat. i had to actually buy a little calendar/planner over the weekend because a couple of weeks ago i completely forgot to pay some bills. i don't know how i can let important stuff like that slip my mind, but like i said before, i'm just too busy these days.

i'm not sure if i want to go home this weekend. my dad's birthday is on saturday. he is turning 51. i ran out of birthday gifts to give him. my dad jogs a lot, and i remember a couple of birthdays ago, i bought him running shoes. i'm not really sure what to get for him this time. it's hard to get gifts for men. oh well, i'm still thinking about it. i have until this evening to make up mind, if i don't go, then i will probably send him a check and a birthday card. i am sure i will be apologizing and giving him excuses of why i won't be coming down. i feel so guilty for some reason. i'm just too tired these days to make a trip down that way. my weekends are very precious to me and i don't want to spend my weekend sitting in a vehicle driving down desolate roads.

i got into an argument with my neighbor down stairs. he is the neighbor from hell. i don't remember what day it was, but i know it was in the evening when that filth of a man came up stairs and banged on my door. i of course, answered the door and the first words out of his mouth was "what the fuck was all the banging last night?". i was appalled by the words he used at first, but the raving bitch in me decided to tell him off. i mean i was mad. my mouth was spittin' out the filthiest words one has ever heard. he got me started, i tell ya.....i just remember when i was done he was scared. there's something mentally wrong with that man. i just told him to mind his own business and to stay out of our lives. there's been a lot of shit that has happened with that man since he's moved in and i just don't want to talk about it right now because it will just piss me off. the bad thing about this whole situation is that i signed another year lease and i have to live next to this shit head for another year. dang!

i'm probably at the shittiest i've ever felt in a long time. when will all this drama go away? let me give you a run down of shit that has happened to me so far:

1. brian got into an accident
2. because of the accident the insurance will go up.
3. the cost of fixing the truck was a total of $5700.
4. we already had to take the truck back because they overlooked a part that should have been replaced.
5. the air conditioner in the truck isn't running like it used to.
6. my apartment kitchen and half the dining room got flooded from the kitchen sink.
7. some desperate, bastard m*fucker, decided to break into my car and steal my whole collection of cds.
8. work is just so overwhelming for me right now.

dang, what next? it's like nowadays i'm always expecting the worst, like something bad is gonna happen. i'm afraid to even answer my phone because i always think its gonna be bad news. hopefully, this is the last of it. september was a really bad month for me.