i am so glad it is friday. this week went by faster than last week. i will probably be working tomorrow, since i don't get paid for any of my holidays. it sucks, we are labeled independent contractors, but we were hired on as permanant employees about 3 years ago. i miss vacations, i miss paid holidays, and i miss sick days.

i have to write a list of stuff that i need to buy before we leave for our little adventure next week. we will be leaving from phoenix on thursday evening. my sister and i are planning on taking my dad out to eat on friday. we'll probably take him to gallup. i have a taste for a stuffed sopapilla from el sombreros. i love those things. they are so delicious. i'm thinking about it right now and a stuffed sopapilla at 3:00 in the morning sure sounds good...

god, my cousin is doing it again. yesterday, we were sitting here at work and she got a call from her boyfriend. i guess he needed to be taken to work, so she clocked out and was on her way to pick him up. after she left, an instant message popped onto her screen and it asked, "so, when shall we meet again?". my co-worker saw it first, we checked the guy's profile, and we saw that it was a goofy looking guy. he was white and looked like some kind of serial killer. i probably had a look of disgust on my face because my co-workers took one look at my face and started laughing. how can my cousin do that? so far, we know of 4 other men that she secretly meets, but she has no idea that we know this. it's so sickening to think about. i, on the other hand, would not do such a thing, even back when i was single and crazy, helllll no! it's just crazy. these days you really can't trust a person, let alone what kind of nasty disease you might get. ughh.

happy thursday! tired...sooooo...i'm going home to sleep in a bit.

i didn't make my goal with my hours like i said i would, but i'm really happy with the outcome. it's better than 80 hours. i worked a total of 133 hours for the pay period. dang, i still can't believe i did it. i know i was determined to work some outrageous hours so my ass can make it back to the rez. i can't wait. my sister is coming down too, so my dad's house will be packed!

sheesh, for the past two days i've been dreaming that i got the job. it's so annoying to wake up and find out that it was just a dream. don't you just hate when you have dreams like that? dreams that seem so real? arghh...

well, didn't do much over the weekend. i worked on saturday, so i had no energy to do anything anyway. i almost went into work sunday, but decided that i shouldn't over work myself before the new week even started. i cooked on sunday though. it's the first time i touched a pan or anything in the kitchen in about a week. i was craving some beef stew that early sunday morning. i made the trip to a local fry's market and bought me all the fixings. i grabbed some yellow squash, baby carrots, celery, stewed tomatoes, potatoes and a giant family pack of beef stew meat. dang, i must have had a massive craving because i also baked a two layer chocolate cake. i was martha stewart for the day.

yesterday i went to a job interview. i was interviewed by two people. i was definately nervous! my palms were sweaty and my legs were jiggly. my interview lasted approximately 30 minutes. i'm not sure if they liked me or not. they were too nice. i couldn't read their body language. usually, i can tell from an interview if they like me or not, but this one i'm not too sure. i just know that i really want to work at this place. i'll talk more about it if i get the job, but i'm trying not to think about it too much because i don't want to get upset when i find out that i wasn't picked for the position.

i finally hunted down some gas the other day. it's such a relief to know that i'm driving around with a full tank of gas. although, i wish i could've bought a gas container at an auto parts store so i can stock up. i would hate to wait in those long lines for gas again. i found out yesterday that the test on the gas pipes failed so a big woop de do for that. heh, yeah right! they also are thinking of building an oil refinery here. yay, for more pollution!

i have a dental appointment again today, so i will probably have to take off for a bit...i'm contemplating on whether i should come back to work or not. i have body aches all over, i know the reason why, but i don't think any of you men want to hear about it.....working all these hours has finally got the best of me. i sleep really good at night and wake up tired. an hour ago, i was sitting here nodding off. my eyes would flicker and then they will eventually close. i wake up so quick, though, when ever my head would fall forward. i had to crack open a can of soda a little while ago, so i wouldn't fall asleep again. i hate when i do that. my cousin does the same. she would be sitting at her desk typing away and then all of sudden there would be dead silence. you look at her and she would be sitting in her chair with her head tilted back, sleeping. we throw spit wads or sticky notes at her so she can wake up. a daily routine for us...

today i have to run around phoenix to try and look for some gas. we have no gas here, and when there is gas, there are long lines just to get gas. my car is running on fumes. it really sucks when you have drive out of your way and wait in long lines for gas. i heard that some places were up to $4.00 dollars a gallon. that is nuts. that's price gouging. i saw a 1-800 number you can call to report places that are price gouging on the news the other day, but i didn't have time to write it down. i don't know what i'm going to do if my gas runs out, i don't know where to go to get gas. i'm in such a dilemma, it is actually stressing me out. i might have to hop onto a city bus just to get to work soon. imagine me waiting at a bus stop on a hot summer day, i don't think so. i need gas, someone fedex me some gas so i can take my butt to work.

i was talking to my sister today. she's decided to join the air force in september. she scored an 88% on her asvab test. the highest you can score is a 99% and the state average for new mexico is 35%. i think she is making a really good decision. she wants to be a linguist or an aeromedical apprentice. wow, my little sister.....she lives in albuquerque now. she just finished classes at sipi and is working part-time until she leaves. i'm gonna really miss that girl, even though we might have not been that close as we were growing up, i still love her to death. i think back to the times when we were little kids and sometimes i wish i could take back all the mean things that i did and said to her. i was a horrible big sister. i remember one time my little friends and i were playing and my little sister wanted to join in our play time. i didn't want her around so i chased her. i threw sticks and rocks at her. i was a really mean sister. i just think of those things when i think about her and i get so teary thinking about how bad i treated her. so now, whenever i see her, i usually buy her things or give her money, i always feel so guilty when i see her. in a way, buying her things and giving her money makes me feel better inside......and to let her know that i really care and love her. i wonder, am i the only one that was this mean to their siblings?

anyway, i'm home. they are supposed to do some kind of maintenance inspection here. so far, i've had 3 maintenance inspections within a year. what in the world is going on? it's funny, i've lived at several different apartment complexes and they never do this much maintenance inspections. it should only be once every year. i'm getting sick and tired of them entering my apartment while i'm not here. so today, instead of working my usual 12 hours, i decided to leave early so i can be here to watch them do the maintenance inspection. they did the other two when i wasn't here, and i really don't feel comfortable with them entering my apartment when i'm not here.

well, went to the dentist yesterday. i got my last filling done. i'm so relieved! i have a cleaning scheduled next week and then after that i have to visit an oral surgeon. i'm so terrified. i'm shaking right now just thinking about it. i have two impacted wisdom teeth and it will require surgery to get them out. they also told me that i should expect to take a couple of days off of work. sheesh, am i going to be in that much pain? has any one had their wisdom teeth surgically removed? what are the after effects?

anyway, i'm here at work, taking my time on starting work. it's a saturday and i'm still sleepy. yesterday i woke up around 1am and didn't get to sleep around 10:30 last night. i was running around the metro mall. dang, that mall has become a hang out for teenagers. they are every where. i had to dodge a lot of them because they were hauling around big backpacks or skateboards or something of that nature. i need to remember to stay away from that mall on fridays and the weekends.

i need to work 8 more 12 hour days to fulfill my goal. we'll see if i can make it through next week with these kind of hours. i bet by monday i will be completely burnt out, but hopefully my motivation will keep me going....

i can't believe it's already friday, working these long hours really makes a work week fly by so fast. i'm surprised i'm not as tired as i thought i would be. i only get about 6 hours of sleep a night. i'm up around 1am, out the door by 1:45 and i get to work around 2am. once i get to work, most of time is spent checking email and web surfing. this lasts for about ...hmmmm....maybe 3 or 4 hours and then when people from the other department start trickling in around 7am, then thats when i get to work.

today i have another dental appointment. i need to get a filling. sheesh, i used to be terrified of dentists when i was a kid. i hated going to the dental clinics on the reservation. i think they loved to torcher little kids. i remember a couple of times when i was a kid, i had to get fillings done, and all that time they were drilling on my teeth, i could feel them drilling. i remember trying to motion to them that it was hurting, but they just ignored me and kept on working. those bastards!

september fair is near....i'm trying to put in as many hours at work so my ass can make it to window rock. my goal is to work 12 hours a day, monday-saturday, until august the 26th. That should give me a total of 168 hours. do you think i could it? i guess we will have to see after the 26th rolls around....

my boss is in town. yesterday he actually had the decency to say hello to me. i of course said hello back and went back to what i was doing. actually, i went back to trying to keep myself busy. i'm still pissed off about something my coworkers and i discovered the other day. we found out that one of the hoes that works at home for us makes probably about 20,000 more than us. i don't understand how she did it, she must have sucked a lot of dick to get where she is now. he definately overlooked us when it came down to picking and choosing for that position. not one time did he even mention to us about the position or even asked us if we would consider wanting to take up the position. the girls and i sat and talked about why we were not picked for the position and we came down to a conclusion..... we are not 'white', it's just plain and simple. we busted our asses to get this department up and running and you would think he would in return do us the same favor. the department came about from our knowledge of coding legal documents. he wouldn't have made it either way. our boss thinks we don't know about this, but the girls and i can be quite the snoop when we are here in the wee hours of the morning. gawd.....i'm still going on my job interviews. i need to get out this place quick!

anyway, this is my bitching for the day.....drama...drama....drama!

yay, it's monday! NOT. last night i got a call from one of the girls from work. she tells me we probably won't get to go into work today. i should be happy, but for some reason i just feel like going into work today.

i didn't do too much over the weekend. i had lunch with a good friend of mine. the food was good, but we had to wait for a freaking long time for the food to get to our table. i was really annoyed, so i only tipped her 2 dollars. i should've left a penny for her. naw, i'm not that evil, but sheesh, she could have offered us some free dessert or something for the inconvenience. anyway, after lunch brian and i went to go watch S.W.A.T. i liked it. we ended up watching it on the northside of town, i think it was on 34th st and bell. i tell ya though, that's probably my 2nd time hanging out way the heck out there and it's like a temporary culture shock. haha.

i don't know what i'm going to do today since it looks like i won't be making it into work today. the stupid server is down and they can't get it back up and working again. i bet it's another virus....i'm going to go warm up some of the chili beans and frybread i made yesterday and plop my ass on the living room floor and veg out.

man, i was so tired yesterday. i got off work and had scheduled me an appointment with my car dealership so they can check the radio/cd player that came with the car. the radio/cd player in my car has been broke for about 2 months now and it really sucks because i can't listen to any of my cds when i'm driving. i didn't realize that not having radio in your vehicle can be so boring. anyway, i waited there for about 2 hours and within those 2 hours i must have fell asleep in their lounge because i woke up with someone shaking me and calling my name. it was my service advisor trying to get me up to tell me that my car was ready to go. she told me that they ordered a new radio/cd player and i should be expecting a letter in the mail in the next couple of weeks telling me that my radio is in. yay! i'm getting a new radio! i bought an extended warranty on my vehicle and so now all i have to do is pay a $50 dollar deductible.

this past weekend was the greatest. brian and i spent our weekend with brian's sister, leona. it was a full house. we bbqed, went sight seeing and watched movies all in one weekend. i always have a good time when we go back, i wish it could last a little longer. i think i won't be satisfied until i stay out on the rez for about 2 months.

okay, i added some more pics to the random pics and kitty cat photo galleries, enjoy!!

i had a wonderful relaxing weekend. i took some photos, but don't have the time to post them up yet. i hope y'all had a good weekend!