my goodness! it's so humid outside. i can't stand it sometimes. i feel like i can't breathe. when i first moved to phoenix i was sick most of the time because i couldn't get used to the climate change and especially the heat. now i just deal with it, even though it can be so uncomfortable at times. i wonder how people who jog in the heat can even stand it. most of the people that i observe jogging in the heat are men. they jog shirtless and you can see them glistening in the sun. rawr...

we're thinking of leaving town this weekend. probably going to drive down to kayenta and spend our weekend out there. i really need to get out of this place. driving to the reservation can be so comforting and especially a big stress relief. being back on the rez takes away all my worries. it's therapy for me. i can clear my mind and have some fun at the same time. the only thing i'm not to fond of right now is that brian's brother-in-law asked us to bring some alcohol down. i don't want to purchase alcohol and haul it all the way down to the rez. that's silly. i feel like i'm in highschool again trying to ask older people to make a run. those were some crazy days, but his request did bring back some of those retarded memories of when i was younger and such a stupid girl.

we finally got rain last night. the monsoon storm finally swept into central phoenix. it's just too bad i had to take my ass to sleep early, so i didn't get to romp around in the rain.

i have an interview today, but i'm not sure i really want to go to the interview. i hate that i have this negative feeling. i think i may know the reason why though. i'm waiting to hear back from this other job that i so desperately want and i'm basically waiting for them to call me for an interview. the other day, the office manager at my work spoke to me for a brief moment and he asked me if i was searching for another job. i told him a little fib. i told him i was trying to look for volunteer work or a part-time job. the office manager looked at me with a weird expression and then blurted out to me that a certain company called him the other day asking about me and asking what kind of work i did. i was totally caught off guard. after our brief conversation i just wanted to scurry away and hide under a rock some where. i hope he doesn't treat me any different because of this. what really gets me is that i answered 'no' on the part that asks you if they could contact your employer on the application. i was sort of pissed that they called, but then again i thought about it for a bit and realized that they wouldn't have called my work if they weren't interested in me.

my dad left phoenix on sunday. i miss him desperately and wish he could have stayed a little longer....

it is official! i finally got my yearly raise. they gave me a 4.75% raise. this is good and bad. the raise is good because we finally got our raise after requesting a review for so long. the bad thing is that i may have to leave soon, since i recently finished school. i cannot make up my mind. since, my graduation from school i've filled out job applications at almost every hospital around the area i live. i'm not sure if i really want to leave my current job. the reason i say this is because i will miss my co-workers. i've been with these girls for over 6 years. i'm thinking of working full time at my future position and then asking if i could work part-time at my current job. i'm hoping that the boss in texas will let me do that. if not, then i guess it's good bye to my dear friends. i know i will miss them very much, but i know that i have to do something with my life quick! this will be the hardest thing for me to do, to leave my friends.

i'm trying to clean up a bit. brian and i moved around furniture last weekend and we are still trying to dust, vacuum, wipe down, and put every thing back together. i have no idea why we decided to rearrange the living room. it was fun at first, but when we got done moving every thing around we noticed that we still had to put back every thing. it's been a mess since last weekend and i have until tonight to clean every thing up. my dad will be arriving tonight!

oh my gawd, today was a freaking tease! i saw storm clouds, lightening, and there was a lot of wind, but you know what? it didn't even freaking rain in the area i was in. it seemed like it knew that i wanted the rain so much, so it purposely went around the area i was in. dang, that sucks. now, its so darn hot and muggy.

i called my dad today. he told me that he's going to be here early saturday morning. he should be arriving in the wee hours of the morning with my two brothers. geez, my brothers haven't been out here in a while. i've moved two times since the last time they came to visit me. i know this weekend will be interesting. i'm sorta glad that my step mother isn't coming. she gets on my nerves and at times i can't stand to be around her. to tell you the truth, i really don't know what my dad saw in that lady...

i'm here at work as always. i didn't realize that destination 2 came out on dvd, so i'm probably going to stop by target after work. i'm also waiting on bringing down the house (aug. 5) and lord of the rings the two towers (aug. 26) to come out.

i had a good day until i got home.....gawd, i'm so mad right now it just makes me want to cry!

well, my birthday was on saturday. i turned 27. i feel so old. i feel like a 40 year old woman trapped in a 27 year old body. i'm serious, i think i grew up too fast. especially, when i moved out here when i was 18. i realized how hard it was to live alone and have no one to help financially. but i made it on my own. all that i have now, i achieved on my own. my family didn't help me because they were in a big financial mess themselves, so i was here, stuck to fend for myself.

anyway, brian took me out to dinner for my brithday. we ate at this wonderful seafood restaurant called papadeux's. yum yum! they have the most delicious seafood dishes and the best desserts. they're to die for! especially their banana pudding. afterwards, he took me out to the mall and told me to get anything i wanted for my birthday. i made the decision to buy clothes. it was perferct, i had a $50 gift coupon for a particular store that i love shopping at too! i think this is probably the best birthday present i had in a long time! i really enjoyed it and this is the first year that i actually didn't drink on my birthday. yay!!

my dad is coming down to visit me this weekend. he missed my graduation and my birthday, so he promised that he will visit me this weekend. i can't wait! that means i have to clean. blah. i have so much junk laying around. i have piles of paper that needs to be filed away in the filing cabinet. i think i might need a secretary or something to do all my filing because i hate sorting through papers. i do enough of it at work already.

i didn't do much yesterday. i went home after work. i was going to go home to clear off my computer desk because it's been a whirlwind of a mess for such a long time, but i just moved a few papers here and there and ended up laying down, watching tv and then falling asleep. i woke up when brian got home from work, but i must have fell asleep again and i didn't wake up until 8:00 last night. i hate when i do that.

i've been here at work since 4 this morning. i haven't done much, but who really cares, i sure as hell don't.

there wasn't much devastation when i walked outside early this morning. i saw a few branches and trash lying on the ground, but nothing really major happened from the wind last night. i thought it was going to rain. i did see lightening in the distance, but it never made its way into central phoenix. i am disappointed that it didn't. we are in desperate need of some rain. the temperature and humidity is beginning to be unbearable. yesterday, i felt nauseated and was beginning to feel dizzy, but it subsided a few minutes later. my co-workers automatically thought i was pregnant. i don't know why they would think of such a thing.

i guess the monsoon finally swept into town tonight. it's really windy here. i heard a few things falling over on the balcony a while ago. i hate to go see what fell down.

i finished school. last day of school was on friday and graduation was on sunday. i feel so relieved, finally! it is really weird though, i still feel the same, always tired and no energy. it really doesn't make any sense......

awwww....look at my cute babies.

thought this was neat!!!! <---check it out, don't maximize the viewing screen because it will give away the illusion.

on another note......i looooove monica's "so gone" remix.

HA! HA! LOOK AT WHAT I RECEIVED IN MY EMAIL. THIS IS WHY PEOPLE GET SO FREAKED OUT SOMETIMES. I GUESS PEOPLE THESE DAYS REALLY DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO. CHECK OUT THE LAST STORY, IT'S SIMILAR, BUT THE STORY IS SET IN CHINLE...AHAHAHAHAHAH...LMAO!!! OH, BY THE WAY, THESE STORIES ARE NOT TRUE!!!!!!!



This ought to make you think -- and it's for real!

A stock clerk was sent to clean up a storeroom in Maui, Hawaii. When he got back he was complaining that the storeroom was really filthy and that he had noticed dried mouse or rat droppings in some areas. A couple of days later, he started to feel like he was coming down with stomach flu, complained of sore joints and headaches, and began to vomit. He went to bed and never really got up again.

Within two days he was severely ill and weak. His blood sugar count was down to 66, and his face and eyeballs were yellow. He was rushed to the emergency at Pali-Momi, where he was diagnosed to be suffering from massive organ failure.

He died shortly before midnight.

No one would have made the connection between his job and his death, had it not been for a doctor who specifically asked if he had been in a warehouse exposed to dry rat or mouse droppings at any time.

They said there is a virus (much like the Hanta virus) that lives in dried rat and mouse droppings. Once dried, these droppings are like dust and can easily be breathed in or ingested if a person does not wear protective gear or fails to wash face and hands thoroughly. An autopsy was performed on the clerk to verify the doctor's suspicions.

This is why it is extremely important to ALWAYS carefully rinse off the tops of canned sodas or foods, and to wipe off pasta packaging, cereal boxes, and so on. Almost everything you buy in a supermarket was stored in a warehouse at one time or another, and stores themselves often have rodents.

Most of us remember to wash vegetables and fruits but never think of boxes and cans. The ugly truth is, even the most modern, upper class, super store has rats and mice. And their warehouse most assuredly does!

Whenever you buy any canned soft drink, please make sure that you wash the top with running water and soap or, if that is not available, drink with a straw.

The investigation of soda cans by the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta discovered that the tops of soda cans can be encrusted with dried rat's urine, which is so toxic it can be lethal.

Canned drinks and other foodstuffs are stored in warehouses and containers that are usually infested with rodents, and then they get transported to retail outlets without being properly cleaned.

Please send this message to the people you care about. (I JUST DID!)


>Warning
>
>A stock clerk was sent to clean up a storeroom at Bashas in Chinle.
>When he got back he was complaining that the storeroom was really filthy and that he
>had noticed dried mouse or rat droppings in some areas.... A couple of days later, he started to feel like he was coming down with stomach flu, complained of sore joints and headaches, and began to vomit. He went to bed and never really got up again. Within two days he was severely ill and weak. His blood sugar count was down to 66, and his face and eyeballs were yellow. He was rushed to the emergency at Chinle Indian Hospital, where he was diagnosed to be suffering from massive organ failure. He died shortly before midnight. No one would have made the connection between his job and his death, had it not been for a doctor who specifically asked if he had been in a warehouse exposed to dry rat or mouse droppings at any time.
>
>They said there is a virus (much like the Hanta virus) that lives in dried rat and mouse droppings. Once dried, these droppings are like dust and can easily be breathed in or ingested if a person does not wear protective gear or fails to wash face and hands thoroughly.
>
>An autopsy wasperformed on the clerk to verify the doctor's suspicions. This is why it is extremely important to ALWAYS carefully rinse off the tops of canned sodas or foods, and to wipe off pasta packaging, cereal boxes, and so on. Almost everything you buy in a supermarket was stored in a warehouse at one time or another, and stores themselves often have rodents. Most of us remember to wash vegetables and fruits but never think of boxes
>and cans. The ugly truth is, even the most modern, upper class, super store has rats and mice. And their warehouse most assuredly does.
>
>Whenever you buy any canned soft drink, please make sure that you wash the top with running water and soap or, if that is not available, drink with a straw. The investigation of soda cans by the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta discovered that the tops of soda cans can be encrusted with dried rat's urine, which is so toxic it can be lethal. Canned drinks and other foodstuffs are stored in warehouses and containers that are usually infested with rodents, and then they get transported to retail outlets without being properly cleaned.
>Please forward this message to the people you care about.
>
>I JUST DID!

i hate going to the dentist. i hate that it's hot here. i hate that i'm soooooooo lazy.

well, my plans for leaving to the reservation has changed. i wanted to visit the food stands and browse through all the neat stuff that the road side vendors had to offer. i've been trying to look for a turquoise bracelet, but i can't seem to find one that i have in mind. i particularly like the thin bracelets that have rows of turquoise, i can't seem to find one like that. i want one that i can wear every day, just like a watch.

so, now that i know that we are going to be staying in town, i'm not really sure what we are going to do for july 4th, or even the weekend. brian's cousin brother has been staying with us for about 2 days. i don't mind him staying, it's just that i don't like him staying and sipping on them beers. i hate the smell of beer. I didn't mind the smell of beer a few years back, but now, i just don't know why i can't stand the smell anymore. it's not like i don't like alcohol because i can sure down a few mixed drinks when i have the chance, but recently when i see some one drinking beer, smelling like beer, or having beer, it just disgusts me. this feeling also applies to brian. he drinks beer every now and then and seeing him drink beer disgusts me sometimes.

anyway, i'm here at work waiting for the minutes and hours to pass by, but today seems to be going slower than it normally would. i don't know if i will be making it into class today. i would like to skip class to actually go shopping. i have to shop for something to wear for my graduation. graduation is on july 13th and i still haven't paid for my cap and gown.

anyway, i hope you all have a good 4th of july weekend, if you're leaving town, drive safely, don't drink and drive, and be good.

i'm really disappointed with my insurance company. every time i call there i always have to be placed on a call back list and then i don't receive a call back from them for about 4-5 hours. yesterday, i received my insurance bill. dang, i about died looking at the statement amount, is $574.60 too much for adding a vehicle and a person to your current insurance? i don't know, the charges were explained to me, but i still cannot understand why it should cost that much. they say the reason why it was that much was because i added a vehicle and a new person in the middle of my policy. i don't know much about car insurance, but i will surely get a second opinion about my situation.

i have about 7 more days left of school. yay! that means i will have no more long hours! yeah right, i will probably keep this job as my second job working from home. it kinda sucks though, because i finally get my raise and i will be leaving soon and when i work from home i won't be getting paid hourly. i haven't started job hunting yet either.

i don't really know what brian and i are doing this weekend. we were planning on going back to the rez, but brian is having second thoughts. he says he's too lazy and he would rather enjoy his time this weekend relaxing. i don't know about that. i had my mind set on going back. hopefully, i can help him change his mind by thursday.