arrrghh....i've been so tired for the past few days i just couldn't get my self to write anything in here. the weekend must have done it. brians plans to travel to flagstaff was cancelled because his sister decided to spend the weekend with us. it was nice, but it was so tiring because i spent most of my time following them around while they went shopping. i did manage to get myself a costco card though. i've been wanting one of them cards for a very long time. i pay for cheap gas now! wooo hooo! yesterday, i paid for regular unleaded gas for $1.66 a gallon, while others pay around $1.90 a gallon. i got some other stuff too. i strolled out of costco with a shopping cart full of merchandise totaling 150.00 bucks. sheesh, did i splurge?

i changed my wireless service from qwest to verizon wireless on saturday. the reason i changed my service is because qwest has sucky coverage. i like to travel back to the reservation sometimes and once i pass flagstaff my phone goes into roaming. i had my wireless phone service with qwest for about 5 years. i think the only reason why i stayed with qwest that long is because they kept my home phone, wireless, and dsl charges all on one bill. i really like my new phone and hopefully i dont' have to get another for a very long time.

hmmmm, not sure what we are going to do this weekend. brian was talking about wanting to travel to flagstaff. i don't know if i like that idea. i hate driving. i hate it with a passion, but when i first got my car that was a different story. i used to take that car out and cruise almost every night. i was proud of my car because it was the first time i actually owned a vehicle. the girls and i used to cruise and have the greatest times. those were the days.....i miss hanging out with the girls. i haven't stayed in touch with them like i should and i know they probably think i suck, but i'm always at work, school, or either tending to brian. i know i should have more time after i finish with school and hopefully they will forgive me for being such a stuck up.

anyway, brian called me a while ago. i guess his sister is in town. they stopped by for a visit. so because we have visitors i will probably have to get off of work early. i can use my dig cam on them and maybe i'll put some pics of brians 2nd cousins in my photo album. they are the cutest little girls. when they come and visit they are always wanting me to put make up on them or curl their hair. aaaaawwww, makes me want to have kids of my own. NOT! i'm kidding, i want one kid, but that will be like....hmmmm....4 or 5 years from now, maybe......

i bought these from blockbuster. they are the cutest things and they remind me of brian and I.

one more day of torture.....i wish today was friday. i haven't had a good nights rest for the past 2 days because of brian and his projects. he still has not put away all the stuff in the bedroom. for the past 2 days i've been coming home with stuff piled on the bed so i can't just throw off my clothes and flop on the bed like i usually do. i have to wait for him to clear away every thing and by the time i finally go to sleep its around 10:30pm or 11pm. yuck, i hate feeling this way. i feel like i'm buzz from alcohol, even though i haven't touched that stuff since the last time we ate at red lobster. its a weird feeling its like i'm in a daze....

last week i entered this health and wealth raffle. its a raffle that supports physicians of st. joseph's hospital and barrow neurological institute so they can do research on diseases of the brain and the spinal cord. i'm crazy for entering it because a raffle ticket costs $100 bucks. anyway, i did it. they were advertising it over the radio and even on the local news channels here in phoenix. there is a 1 in 20 chance in winning, 7,700 prizes being awarded, only 150,000 entries accepted, and all prizes are worth over $100 dollars. i didn't believe it at first when i was hearing it on the radio, but when i heard it announced on fox channel 10 here in phoenix i felt that the drawing was legit. i spent $100 dollars on a raffle ticket, you never know i might be living in one of those grand dream homes in goodyear. wish me luck!

gosh, i've been so tired for the past few days. yesterday i opened up blogger and i couldn't get myself to write anything. i'm totally burnt. i have been working and going to school for 7 months now. i feel like i can't take it anymore. i'm a walking zombie, expressionless. i also noticed that i have no tolerance for anything.

yesterday, after i got off of work i went home and walked through the front door, right away i noticed that the there was stuff from the bedroom in the hallway. i think brian is really bored when he gets off work because he tore apart the whole bedroom. his intention is to rearrange the whole bedroom. so far, i love it. he moved the computer desk, bed, dresser, entertainment center, and the drawer. he arranged it to where we can have easy access to the bed and the computer. he's always doing stuff like that around the place. i love it. he also cooked for me last night. the menu for dinner last night was garlic chicken w/ gravy, baked potato, corn, and some biscuits. he can make some really good meals, but for some reason he can never make spaghetti.

well, i'm still playing with my digital camera and so far i managed to get a lot unloaded into my computer. i've printed a lot. i also printed a big 8x10 photo my kitty cat. she is such a poser. i opened up a photo album. sorry i didn't have time to put any titles on any of the pics.

i didn't do anything for easter. brian and i were contemplating on whether we should rent a car and travel out to kayenta for the weekend. we made our decision on friday that we would stay. on saturday, we decided to color eggs with brian's sister and her boyfriend. it was quite exhilirating. it reminded me of being little kids again. i had to dig in the closet to look for crayons and stuff to make decorations on the eggs. that same night we went to go watch bulletproof monk. it was brians sisters idea to watch the movie. i thought the movie was going to be another stupid movie, but it actually turned out to be really good. i liked it, some parts were hilarious.

after the movies we went to this really neat antique shop that brian and i have been wanting to visit for a very long time. its located in an antique strip mall off of 7th avenue and mcdowell. i was in awe. i probably had my mouth open the whole time looking through the store. i know i mentioned so many times that i collect old soda bottles, well, i found tons! i purchased a dr pepper bottle that was $8.50 and an rc crown royal bottle for $4.00. there were plenty of other things that i wanted, but they were just too pricey for me. i wanted to purchase these glass cups that were from the 80's. i think a lot of the fast food franchises distributed them. i saw care bears, ewoks, cabbage patch kids, e.t., fog horn, tom and jerry, and smurf cups to name a few. they were awesome, but costed $10.00 each.

i made the best purchase decision in my life on saturday evening. i finally purchased a digital camera. its a sony cybershot dsc-p72. i am so proud of my purchase. i feel like i really can't live without it now. brian purchased me a photo printer on christmas so i had the photo printer before my digital camera. it was a very long wait, but i'm so glad i waited to get my camera. i love it and i've gone camera crazy for the past few days.

my dad left my apt this morning to travel back home. i feel crappy because my dad left. i miss him already. i felt like crying on his shoulder and telling him not to leave me. i'm daddy's little girl. as i was growing up, my dad would spoil me to death. i waited for his magic words when pay day would come around. he would always take me to gallup and buy me what ever i wanted. i tell ya, those were the days, but i probably know the real reason why he would spoil me so bad. my grandmother and grandfather took care of me most of the time and he knew how bad they would treat me. my grandparents also took care of 3 of my other cousins. they would spoil my cousins, but never me. my cousins would get cookies and juice from them while i would sit there and watch my cousins eat all them sweets. i think back then they didn't like me because i wasn't full blood navajo. its kind of sad to think about it but, its really true.

i love my dad with all my heart, but sometimes i wish he would have worked things out with my mother. to this day i still wonder how it would be like if my mother and father never divorced. would i still be living in texas? would i have chosen a different path out of high school. there are so many things that could have been, but that would mean that i probably would have never known how it would be like to live on a reservation, to taste mutton stew, fry bread, or even to take a crap in an outhouse. i have no regrets at all, but i think it would be neat, if somehow, we could just take a glimpse of what could have been.

my dad and i struggled for the most part. he was always there for me. i love him very much for bringing me into this world and right now i really miss him. he left today and i wish i would have made him stay another day..............

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pics of my gigi. she loves to sprawl like that. :)

i had a nice weekend. brian and i had time to go visit the maricopa county fair. i love fair food. brian bought one of those big turkey legs and i had a funnel cake. i really enjoyed myself. we didn't go to the state fair last year so we decided that we would go to the maricopa county fair. we went around 9pm saturday night. there was a lot of people walking around and we even got to watch a concert. it was some kind of rock and roll tribute concert and we got to watch a live spray paint art show. it was fascinating to watch. especially, since she was using only paper, and spray paint to make her designs.

i did my taxes too. this is the first freaking year i dont have to pay back federal taxes. the irs owes me 26 bucks. heh. it's not much but i sure as hell will put that 26 dollars to good use. i owe on state taxes though, they got me for 142 bucks. i was very happy with the outcome. i only pay 142 in taxes. YIPEE! i paid them suckers off already. now for next year....thats a different story. i haven't save any money to pay for my taxes for next year. dang....

how did this week go by so fast? its flying by before my eyes. i got to work early today so i will be leaving around 7pm. yipee! i had a test today at school and i'm so dissappointed on how much i missed. i thought i knew all the answers, but from the outcome of my test score, i guess i didn't know enough. i should have went back and double checked my work. i missed 8 on a 74 question test. i know i'm being hard on my self, and that it's still a good grade. i'm such a nerd.

i was being bitchy today when i got into work. the guys in the other department decided that they wanted to listen to the diamond backs game. they act like they are the only people here in the office. i work with a vast amount of inconsiderate people. the men here are pigs and bastards. my department consists of women and we are not sports finatics, and so listening to the game was horrible. listening to a baseball game is just as bad as listening to someone scratch on a chalk board. i mean, we already hate work and then to come into work and listen to that shit? they drive me crazy. sometimes i just want to tell them to shut the fuck up because they are the loudest people in the office. one of my coworkers complained about it to the office manager. the problem was resolved for a couple of months, but now they are worse. they yell, scream, laugh, talk, and one day i even heard them farting. do all people work with these kind of people or is it just me?

dang, i still haven't file my taxes. i HATE tax time! i always freaking have to pay back every dang year. soorrrry...:) had to express my frustrations somewhere. anywho, i'm leavin'

my cat's fur is finally growing back. i shaved her a couple of months ago because she was shedding like she was gonna lose all her fur. i got tired of trying to brush my clothes off every day. so far, shaving her fur has helped a lot. i don't have a problem waking up with cat fur in my mouth any more. last night i was rudely awakened by her. she was biting the hell out of my foot. she does that to probably punish me for kicking her in my sleep. she sometimes sleeps at the foot of my bed and i tend to knock her around while she is sleeping. brian told me that one time i even rolled over when she was sleeping in between us.

over the weekend we made our journey to kmart. this kmart was have a closing sale. we splurged on kitty stuff. we bought this really neat toy that drives my cat crazy. its a grey mouse and every time you touch or tap the top of it, it will squeak. that thing is awesome. i got some other toys that i thought were cool, but my cat doesn't like any of em. she prefers playing with that squeaky mouse.

i have a test tomorrow. we are studying the reproductive system in anatomy and physiology. i learned something today. i have no kids and i have never been pregnant before so for the ladies that think i'm crazy for not knowing this, please bare with me. we learn new things every day and we will never stop learning until we die. anyway, dr paul (my teacher) told us today that women cannot get pregnant while they are breast feeding their child. very interesting..........

brian's family arrived into phoenix on thursday night. we had a full house. we had a total of 6 people squished into our 1 bedroom apartment. most of his cousins slept on the floor in the living room. brian and i offered them the air mattress but they preferred sleeping on the hard floor. that is what you call some true rezzers. we had so much fun while they were in town. we probably hit every mall in phoenix. i swear, his family can shop. they can probably spend 2 hours in one store. i myself, love to shop, but i cannot stand running around in the same store for that long. i like to browse first and then i go back to the stuff i had my eye on and either try it on or buy it. brians family on the the otherhand will probably be in one aisle for about 15 minutes before they decide to go the next. sheesh, by the time we get home i will be so exhausted and have some very tired, aching feet.

on saturday we also went to the flea market at greyhound park. we got there around 10am and left around 3:30pm. omg ! i found something that i love! i think i mentioned this in an earlier post and its that I LOVE TO COLLECT OLD SODA BOTTLES. anyway, i was rummaging through some stuff and i about passed out. i saw two of the most wonderful things! i found two 32 oz. soda bottles. one was a dark green 7up bottle and the other one was a clear orange crush bottle. both still had their original aluminum lids. its the first time i actually got to touch a 32 oz soda bottle. im really excited about the find. i know where i can find more soda bottles, but it's back on the rez. i would like to one day take some time off so i can go soda bottle hunting:)

i'm here at work. i'm about ready to leave from here. i need to go home and get some food in my stomach. i'm so hungry. brian said he was going to cook me dinner tonight. the other day brian was cooking macaroni and cheese on the stove and he called me on the phone and he asked me why the macaroni and cheese was so watery. i asked him how much milk did he add to the macaroni and he specified the right amount. i sat there on the phone trying to figure out how or why it can be so watery when i finally asked him if he had drained the water from the macaroni after he finished boiling it. he said that he didn't....... he can be so cute sometimes.

a friend of mine sent me this pic and links if you want to send some words to the family:

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this weekend we are going to dine out at this place called JD HOGG'S BBQ COMPANY. dang, that place is good! it's off of 16th street and Buckeye. yes, i know its way out in the boon docks, but i tell ya, it is really worth the trip. they have a variety of specialties to pick from. their menu offers, rack of ribs, sliced or chopped beef brisket, rib tips, certified angus beef hot dogs, catfish fillet dinners, three meat combos, smothered pork chops, down home greens (collards), black eyed peas, corn bread, peach cobbler, sweet potato pie and even kool-aid etc..... my personal favorite is the collards and the rib tips. a friend of mine referred me to the place. i can't stop visiting the place ever since! i guess it all depends on your taste in foods. i like soul food and can never get tired of rice and black eyed peas. MMMMmmmmm.......i'm salivating here. :) anyway, they not only have good food, they also have pool tables, a bar, and play some really cool music.

ohhhhhh.....i completely forgot. i got an award for having a 4.0 grade point average since september:) yay, for me.

dang! i forgot that red dragon came out on dvd yesterday. i try to buy dvds the day they are released because they are cheaper. i hate when i have to pay full price for em' when i know i could have got it cheaper. yesterday was the first time i got to watch all of "where the heart is". i really liked the movie. i knowwwwww...it's a chic movie, but i thought it was really good.

this weekend i'm going to have a full house. brian's family is gonna come down and visit. i wonder who is going to make the trip out here. brian requested that they bring some mutton down. i told brian if he wanted mutton he is to cook it himself. heh. he's been bugging me about going back to the rez. his only purpose is to bring back a leg of mutton. lol. it's kinda' silly, but i do know of some people that go back to the rez to get mutton.

I'm back! i feel 80% better. boy did i suffer. i had so many things going on with my body this past weekend. sheesh, from god's curse to women, chills, runny nose, awful sounding coughs and those damn nightmares. it never fails, every time i get sick i always have nightmares. see, my nightmares are not the kind of nightmares you would see in scary movies. my nightmares are just stupid, but for some reason they scare me to death in my dreams. i can give you an example. one of my dreams was of me driving down the road. it was me and another car. in my dream we were racing each other, but every time the other car would beat me i would get scared. now that i think about it, it's kinda funny. i just can't see why i can get so scared about a dream like that. or either that i was probably so wired from all the meds i was taking.

anyway, i'm here at work. today, is my first day back since last thursday. heh, nothing has changed since i've been gone. same ole' shit and the same ole' stuck up people. the good thing about today is that its payday, finally! dang, it took an eternity for it to come. i hate the fact that it landed on a tuesday though. i usually get paid on a friday. that totally throws me off, because i keep thinking that today is friday.

well, i have 3 more months left of school. graduation date is july 11th. i get more and more paranoid as the days go by though. at first, i was so psyched to get into school and hurry up and finish, but now i feel differently. i think when it all comes down to it i'm just pissed at the school for making me believe some things that aren't really true, those bastards.....